Wednesday, 31 January 2018

Seperate Lives | It Works For Me

Hello lovelies,
Recently I've had a few comments that its like I'm living two separate lives and I agree. I have my work life and then my life at home with the people I love. I think I might be happy with that. I'm fully aware that I have my own bubble outside of the workplace but I have to detach from it all.

Last year I struggled a lot with trying to keep a good balance, trying to stay afloat when it felt like I was constantly drowning in everything. The one part of this that I would change is I would have chummy more involved in the happy at home side of things. The rest of the work stuff can stay there. Work isn't something that makes me happy but it is a necessity if I want to be able to earn money. Since I've tried the whole idea of keeping them separate works become a little better.

I wasn't aware of the separation before but now that I am aware of it, it makes it a hell of a lot easier for me to switch off or switch between the two lives very easily for me. This year I am determined to have a better balance, to regain myself back. I lost a part of me for so long and I need to get her back. I need to get back to what I love. Currently I'm spending my night writing, editing and listening to my favourite songs and getting lost in my own work again. I've missed this so much. I've missed the moments where I can switch off from the world, put on my headphones and just write.

I think I let everything take over last year. I went through the darkest period in my life, I came out of it and I'm happy about that. After that I got into a relationship that got pretty serious pretty quickly and I'm so thankful for that......but I didn't make sure I had time just for me. Time to process just how far I had come, to look at the ups and downs and sort of see the weird journey I had been on. I'm getting my time back, I'm making time for things that make me happy. Things that only I do. Not an activity for me and charlie, to a family thing or not a chummy thing. Just me. Just me and my own little world. The me that throws on my pyjamas, scrags her hair back into a messy bun, grabs a mug of tea, pops on her favourite songs and just gets on with writing and immersing herself in a world of her own creation.

I'm finally getting back to my old self and I love it. I'm my own person again and I love it, I love that I have that spark back. That passion has re-ignited in me and I'm ready to do exactly what I love again. My two worlds may be separate but I love it, I love the fact that for the first time in ages I'm back to my old self again.