Tuesday, 21 February 2017

Thank you | An Awkward One

Hello lovelies,
There was a guy. I know that you're all thinking "Oh another one", yes I know spare me the lecture. This one however actually meant something. Granted unfortunately that hasn't gone anywhere but this is more thank you to him. He won't ever see this but thank you. Thanks for making me feel special and wanted, there will always be more to this little story than I will have told people. It's a shame but some stuff I just want to keep for me. I know chummy will now think you're a slight dick, sorry about that but to be fair I was angry and maybe without realising it I blew some stuff out of context. She got told most of the stuff you said but little moments and stuff like that I will keep just for me. 

Basically this guy was my first. Yep not something I thought I'd post online but there we go, that happened and no I'm not going into detail on that. We're all adults here, and if we're not then ummm..........special adult cuddles. Please don't question me. Now some people have bad experiences when they lose their virginity, mine however was actually a good experience. He was aware that it was my first time and was very considerate of that, he made me feel like it was all about me and just made sure I was okay the whole time.

If anything this is a little thank you to him, not for that! This isn't going to be some soppy thing. It's more of a thing of thanks for not being a dick like everyone else. There will always be more than I tell even my best friends, chummy wont know the full story and for once I think I need to keep it just for me. Thanks for the late night face time calls when I needed to see you because I'd had a bad day. Thank you for the good morning and sweet dreams messages that put the biggest smile on my face. Maybe if things were done little differently then we might have had a chance, I'm to blame but then again so was he. I think it's the type of thing that if we had met when we were a little older and slightly more wiser to the world then we way have had some shot at it actually working.