Sunday, 20 November 2016

10 Ways I Relax |

Hello lovelies, 
Its safe to say I'm very stressed right now. I thought I'd felt stress and it turns out its nothing compared to how I'm feeling right now. I haven't slept for over 48 hours and its safe to say I'm running on empty now. Ohhh this is probably the best time to mention that next week I'm taking the week off. Well Ill be back on December the first to attempt blogmas this year. Anyway while I'm exhausted and can't sleep I thought it was the perfect time to tell you how I've been trying to relax.

Books |
My biggest escape from real life are books. Settling down with a good book is one of the best things for me. A chance to just lose myself in the world of someone new. To get attached to characters and create a face, voice and personality just from some words on a page. Oddly I love reading recipe books. Like home baking books, its so nice to see where inspiration came from for that bake.

Music |
When my life just seems so busy I go off into my own little world full of music and good lyrics. There's just so many songs that I adore because the lyrics are just so perfect. When I need to relax I tend to put on some Adele or just something quite soothing. Saying that, I've actually been loving the trolls soundtrack. Its just the perfect little pick me up and puts me in a much better mood.

Find your chummy |
Chummy, Best friend, friend or whatever you call them. Find them. I guarantee they will make you feel 100% better. My chummy' been like my little rock over the last few days, I'm not actually sure what I would have done without her. Chummy knows me better than most so she knows when somethings wrong, luckily she's been okay with being on hand when I need her lately.

Kalms |
For me Kalms work. They are a herbal tablet that gives relief for stress and things like that. I find that they do calm me down a little so for me they are something I have to keep with me. 

Productivity |
I haven't been able to sleep so I like to just keep busy. I find that going off into my little writing bubble has been helping me a lot lately. Granted what I've been writing hasn't been going online but its being stored away for another little project that I'm working on.

Bubble bath |
Bubbles baths are the best way for me to relax. I run a nice bath, pop a bath bomb in the water and just spend a good hour in a warm bath with a face mask on. Its just nice to have that time to let all the stress just wash away and to just have some time to think.

Candles |
When I'm feeling super stressed I like to just turn off all the lights and have my candles burning. Nothing relaxes me more than see the flicker of a flame as its light dances. It's just a little focus that takes my mind to another place. Also I love them smell of just gone out candles. A little weird but its just something that I like.

Hot chocolates |
A comfort drink for me and I have to go all out. Milky hot chocolate which marshmallow floss, whipped cream and a dusting of cocoa and a drizzle of caramel. The perfect little pick me up after a stressful day.

Blanket forts |
A few weeks ago I had a rather weepy day. I spent that day in a fort of blankets and pillows and it was just magical. Chummy called and I just laid my phone on my pillow to talk to her. I didn't want to move and I didn't have to. I was snuggled in a cosy little blanket and life seemed perfect.

Cuddles |
Hugs always make me feel less stressed. Unfortunately chummy isn't a hugger so mum is the one I go to. Nothing cheers me up more than a hug, it just feels safe. Like nothing bad can happen and you just feel so loved in that moment. So chummy if you're reading this.......a hug will help me sometimes. Even a baymax one haha.

So that's a little list of things I do or need to relax. I'm now off for a cinema trip with chummy and her bf. I like to think he's become one of my friends as well, I mean he's sort of stuck with me anyway because of chummy haha.

Tuesday, 15 November 2016

What Happened Last Week | November 7th-13th

Hello lovelies,
The past week has been really good. It's had it's bad parts but I've managed to just block those out. Conclusion of the week though, as much as I think that maybe I mean something to people. I don't. I know what role I play in everyones lives, that role just feels like I'm there to pass the time. That's fine. But for too long I've had to put my happiness on hold while I try to be everything for everyone else. After a very long chat with the woman at work I know what I need to do now.

Monday |
A shopping day was had on Monday. It was a very good shopping day, I got another 5 Disney teddies which I'm in love with. I also got the most epic dinosaur onesie. It was nice to have a chummy day, It seems like we have a lot of chummy days when yes I see her a lot, that's just because of work. It was nice to just be out without worrying about work and just have a day of shopping. The one thing I forgot though was to get gloves and a scarf from primark. The only things I went in for. It's always the way though. After that we headed back home, went and grabbed a bite to eat and then chummy dropped me home.

Tuesday |
A day at work and it wasn't actually that bad. The evening wasn't fun but its just something I don't really want to think about. Stuff happened, I got annoyed but that's life. I did however get obsessed with married at first sight. I didn't even want to watch it but I got persuaded. I'm glad I was now, it's just so good. There really isn't much to say about this day. Lets just say something that seemed like a bad thing actually turned out pretty good. Some stuff just isn't meant to happen. I'm sort of glad it worked out that way.

Wednesday |
A nice day off for me and my morning was spent all snuggled in my bed, watching really shit TV. I washed my hair which seemed like a very tedious task but my hair was like thick grease. I had a good Zumba class in the evening and also actually went to the gym in the afternoon. When I got home I just cocooned in my bed for a bit and just want to bed.

Thursday |
Thursday morning and me and chummy stupidly agreed to go to Zumba. It just seems really slow on Thursday mornings compared to Wednesday. We snuck away half way though the class. Chummy had stuff to do and I needed to see my aunt and get ready for work. Work was pretty fun, we finished early and it was just a pretty easy shift. I mean I found out one of the women I work with is leaving, I was a little devastated but it's what's right for her and her family.

Friday |
Not an early this week which was a shame, instead I started at nearly 9. It was an okay shift, not the best but me and chummy were told we're going, if we wanted, to a new store for the day. It's an hour away but it's a little road trip for us and a day to play in a new store for a bit. I'm' actually quite excited to get out of our store. It'll be nice to see a different one and just have a very fun chummy day. When I got home I just wanted to relax for a bit. Listen to some good music and have a nice little pamper evening.

Saturday |
I had a late at work and this was one I was looking forward to. My manager hasn't really been able to give me and chummy a lot of lates together over the last few months. It's a bit of a shame but luckily we had our late together. It actually wasn't to bad. I had a little heart to heart with the woman I work with, I told chummy something that I thought was cute but was sort of met with a meh response. I didn't mind but I was a bit like oh. Hence why the woman I work with got a the story I wanted to tell my chummy. After work it was nice to just go home and get in bed. I didn't feel great so all I wanted was a cosy bed and some shit TV.

Sunday |
Sunday funday at work. It was okay. Wasn't brilliant but we made the best out of a bad situation. Now it just wen mad at the end before we closed, that meant we were very behind. We got done but we also had to put up and decorate the tree. We only had time to put the tree up which was a shame. When I got home I had a good selection of snacks because I was ready for bed and I'm a celebrity. Its like the true sign Christmas is on the way in the UK. 

That was about it for the week. It was okay but now I'm just feel super festive. I'm just in such a good place right now in every aspect of my life. Things are looking up and I'm just very happy with everything that's happening.

Saturday, 12 November 2016

Little Life Updates |

Hello lovelies,
Life's seemed so hectic lately. I've let things get to me that just seemed so silly now, they were of no importance but I let it get stuck in my head. This time of year is so cosy for me but it normally brings a little sadness. A part of my life, a big part of my life was given up at this time of year and it's like life went into a downward spiral. This year it seems a little easier. I thought I'd give you a little update of how life in general is going right now. From home to work I want to give you a clear picture of where I am in life right now.

Family |

Family life is something that used to seem so simple. I grew up in the most loving home with the most incredible family. I'm still lucky enough to have them all with me. There's one person who's just become a stranger to me. Me and my sister are still like strangers and I think it's for the best. Do I miss my big sister? Yes. We're just completely different people now, our lives have gone so separate and as harsh as it sounds, well cutting her out of my life has made me a lot happier. There's just a lot less drama and its just easier to be myself. 

Friends |

Friends are the ones who've picked me up a lot this year. Granted ones been a little quiet but that's understandable. He's still there when I need him and that's the main thing, one of the reasons I love him to pieces. The one constant is chummy. A girl who this time last year was just a colleague and now....well now she's like a sister to me. The girl who's dragged me out of my shell, sometimes kicking and screaming but I'm glad. If she didn't persuade me to do stuff then I'd still be stuck at home wondering if there was more to life.

Work |

Work is just as shit as ever. The company I choose to keep at work has also changed a little since last time. My chummy is still obviously my partner in crime, the guy I work with is still one of my favourites but apparently one of my work best friends has appeared in the form of the funniest, most sarcastic woman. She was my buddy when I first joined and she's one of the people who I can have such a giggle with. One of my favourites is leaving, that's a little sad. I guess I didn't really expect her to go. I think its now started everyone else off on leaving. As much as we say we hate it, we have a laugh. I get that its not a forever thing for most but for me, well maybe it is. I've accepted that and I don't really mind. Its a fun job, stressful but fun. I've been upped to 25 hours a week which means I can save more, well or at least try to. That's still a working progress. 

Blog |

My blog. The one thing that used to be my only focus. I've got a little lost lately and I think we are all aware that I've let things slip. My focus has shifted and I need to shift it back. I'm hoping I can but sometimes other things have to come first. Now This is the first time in weeks that I've actually sat at my desk and wrote. Its normally done on my phone in a rush. I cleared all my desk so it was neat and tidy. For once there's not things falling on my keyboard or random bits and bobs distracting me. I'm hoping that this simple thing will mean I'm a little more focused. Blogmas is also coming up and I'm hoping to do it this year. This will be the third year I've done it but I'm hoping this year to make it much better than the previous two tears.

Health |

Physical health is a working progress. I haven't gained any weight but I still have a few more stone to shift before I'm at my goal. If I'm honest with you I don't think I'll ever truly be happy with what I look like, that doesn't mean I'll give up. Mental health. That's a little thing I'm really working on. I've had to really try and work a lot of things out, little triggers that set everything off so I've managed to find ways of calming myself before things get out of hand.

Love |

You all know my little escapades over the last few months. I don't regret any of it. My like chummy said, I'm fishing. That sounds weird but I'm only 19. I'm seeing whats out there. Some fish seem nice but aren't, so they have to be put back. Other fish might stick around for a bit. I don't have a boyfriend, I mean I've had failed attempts but that's where I've been going wrong. I was so sure that's what I wanted to I got to paranoid that I needed one. Do I? No, I don't. If someone comes along who makes me happy, adds to my life then maybe a relationship. At the minute I just need to take things slowly, something that I've learnt now.  No. It just means now I know that I can just take this whole love thing a little slower. The woman at work, apparently we just have deep chats, said to me it'll happen but you just need to focus on you for a bit. The right man will come along. I think she's right. Anyone who wants to be in my life will show it. If they don't then goodbye to them.

That's that really. That's life lately and I hank I'm actually in a pretty decent place right now. Life's getting a little less hazy and theres a clearer picture of how everything's panning out. Well I hope you liked that little update. It was actually nice to sit at a tidy desk for one, listen to some good music and get back to what I love doing more. 

 To you.
If you actually read this pitiful attempt at writing then thanks. I genuinely mean that. The fact that you choose to read what I have to say means so much to me. You're a part of my life in a small way and I'm just glad that for some reason you keep coming back to see what I've been up to.

Thursday, 10 November 2016

Monthly Favourites | October 2016

Hello lovelies,
A very late monthly favourites for you. As you know, life's been a little hectic lately. I've fallen a little behind on the blog and I sort of needed that little break. A break from writing was needed, I'm not sure why but I just needed a clear head. I like to think that I've got that now. Now lets get on with this post shall we.

Beauty |
A beauty favourite of mine has been the benefit gimme brow gel. I got this free in a magazine which was actually such a good deal. This just adds more volume to the eyebrows making them a little more defined. I have quite thick brows but its good to fill in the parts that are a little less prominent. I really love this and I might actually get one when my one runs out. I've worn it quite a few times and I just think it make them look a bit more shapely as well.

Album |
Joanne! I'm a very big fan of Lady Gaga and she was back with her latest album. This was very much like the Adele album in the respect that I loved every single song. I love the direction this albums taken, its a little more country and I really like that.  Some of my favourite's are Joanne, sinners prayer, grigio girls and angel down. 

Song |
My favourite song has changed so much this month. I would have to say that in the end it was Joanne. I just adore the lyrics to this and I think at one point in the month some of the lyrics hit me quite hard. I know what the songs about but to me it struck a chord that was completely different. The line I fell in love with was 
"Honestly, I know where you're going' 
And baby, you're just movin' on 
And I'll still love you even if I can't 
See you anymore 
Can't wait to see you soar.
I'm not sure why but its just such a lovely part of the song. I guess we all have situations in life that hit us hard, lyrics that are intended for another reason can somehow seem quite fitting.

Book |
I've been loving girl boss. I just find it really interesting and quite empowering a little bit. Ive been dipping in and out of it for a few weeks, its just a very good book to get engrossed in. Plus it looks pretty cute in instagram pictures haha.

Film |
Me before you was my favourite film of the month. I loved the book and I'd been waiting to see the film. They did it just perfectly in my eyes, they got the characters just right and turned such a beautifully heartbreaking story into the most amazing film. I cried several times during the film much like I did with the book.

Clothing |
My scarf. A very odd one I know but since its got much colder I've had to start preparing for winter. That means my chunky purple scarf comes with my everywhere. Its just so warm and cosy, and weirdly has the smell of sherbet which I really like. I'm not sure why it smells like it but I love it.

Moment |
My favourite moment? This is hard because there have been a few moments that have felt quite special. It seems like all my favourite moments involve my chummy and this month is no different. We had a chummy crafting day a few weeks ago and it was just really fun. I'm pretty sure that was in October. I don't even know if I'm honest. But that was just such a fun day. We had snacks, trips to craft stores and just a good giggle.

Tuesday, 8 November 2016

What Happened Last Week |

Hello lovelies,
Last week was a little hit and miss. My blog suffered a lot and I'm very sorry for that. I just needed a little time to chill out and enjoy myself a little. Anyway let's get on with this little post shall we.

Monday |
I had plans on Monday. We were going to go and carve pumpkins, ending the night in a club. That didn't happen and I was a little disheartened if I'm honest. Basically I spent the day regretting the weekend and just having a little home day. It was nice but the plans just changed very drastically. It was nice to just have the day for me. Get some little bits and bobs done.

Tuesday |
I had the perfect little day on Tuesday. A whole chummy day and I was just so relaxed. We carved our pumpkins, granted we were a day late but we still wanted to do them. I attempted to carve the Disney castle, I failed but it was nice to try out the design. This was also my first time pumpkin carving. I've come to the conclusion that I love carving but not emptying the pumpkin of the horrendous seeds and gunk. After that we had a little spot of lunch and then headed upstairs. We popped on nightmare before Christmas and just snuggled in bed. That sounds very odd, it was just very cold and we were slightly tired. It was just so chilled out, I also had a cat asleep at my feet. I'm allergic but I was fine. After the perfect day I went home and just felt so ill. Period pains were hell and all I wanted to do was sleep. 

Wednesday |
I was back to work on Wednesday and I spent part of my shift in tears. Things got brought up about the Saturday that made me quite upset. It was horrible but after some time on my own I calmed down. I was going to go for a Zumba class but chummy didn't, that meant I wasn't really feeling it. I also felt really ill, most of my shift was me trying not to throw up. To be fair the guy I work with was really sweet with me, he made sure I was okay and did most of my work for me. When I got home I just wanted to snuggle down into bed and just chill out. I lit a few candles and chilled out the the gaga album.

Thursday |
An early start for me which I didn't mind. My day was spent at work with chummy but I was stuck on the till. A day being moaned at by customers was just far too annoying for me. Now luckily for me I got to go home just before 2. That meant my night was spent watching Netflix, reading my book and just reflecting on the week a little. It dawned on me that recently I've spent all my time focused on everyone one. I just want to focus on myself for a while, just to make sure I'm okay and then I can focus on everyone I love. Ohhh and I also got a birthday gift for the woman I work with. She's honestly the sweetest woman, always there when I need her and I wanted to get her a little something. 

Friday |
A very early start, a 4am start for that matter and it was hell. I didn't realise that my manager was in which was a little annoying. I like my open ups to be on my own. I just don't like people judging my every move. After my shift I went to go and have a little chat with chummy and then got to head home. The minute I got home I just got into my onesie and got tucked up in bed. I turned on Netflix, popped on the crown and spent my evening engrossed in royal life. I love a show about the royal family, I managed to get 7 episodes done. The best 7 hours of the week. I wanted to get some stuff done but I just wanted a night to chill out and enjoy a new show. I went to bed pretty early but then woke up to a message from he guy I work with, he wanted to swap shifts but never gave me an answer so I was very unsure of what I was actually working.

Saturday |
I woke up early because I was so unsure of what I was actually working. May have landed him in it with our manager, anyway work was okay. It was a little quiet which was nice for once. It gave me some time to get stuff done and just have a relaxed shift. The minute I got home a massive argument kicked off, basically my mum telling me that my chummy would just post all my private stuff on Facebook. Something she wouldn't do, she knows everything and has never said a word. She pissed me off by saying that a girl who has basically become like family to me would do that. Anyway I watched another episode of the crown and just went to bed. I was in no mood to chat so I just wanted to go to sleep.

Sunday |
After a hectic week it was the final day. A Sunday funday which was okay. Not the best but it was okay I suppose. Someone said something which made me say something, which then sort of landed me in it. Basically something I'd kept quiet for a few weeks that not even chummy knew. I think chummy was a little annoyed but I just avoided her questions. After a long shift I went home, got ready and then just waited to go out. At that point chummy wanted to know if I was lying, I think she was just a little shocked I hadn't said anything. Anyway I had a really nice night. I then came home and finished the rest of the crown. It's honestly such a good series. 

Anyway that was my week. It ended with a nice night and now I'm ready to start focusing on me a little more and just getting life a little more sorted.