Saturday, 24 September 2016

Anxiety strikes again |

Hello lovelies,
A very spontaneous post today. Short but to the point. At the minute I'm sitting in a rather cold canteen at work. Everyone thinks I've got the ump. I didn't have but after a while of little comments I've had enough.

I've been happy all day but I just came over really anxious. I don't know why but having a mini panic attack in my head while everyone is just carrying on is weird. They don't know what's going on in my head but I just sort of shut down. I just go quiet because it's the only thing to stop me from just bursting into tears at any moment. Little comments aren't helping. I'm sorry that I'm not happy 100% of the time. I try to be but anxiety just hits me and I don't know why.

It just feels like everyone else can have moments when they're quiet but when it's me it's like I've done something wrong, like I'm not allowed to just shut off and go into my own little world. There's an awful lot going on that I haven't told anyone, not even chummy but it's all just got too much. It's just taking its toll and that means that even though it feels like the stress isn't there, well it just pops up in everyday situations and makes me just panic.

I just need to go home and shut off. Little comments got to me and I know they shouldn't have, but they go hand in hand with something I was moaned at for the other day. Not long left of this shift then I can go home, have a nice bubble bath and hopefully just get a clear head for tomorrow.

Lots of love,
Chloe xxxx