Saturday, 27 August 2016

Chummy I'm Sorry |

Hellos lovelies,
Now I know there's been no what happened last week this week. Sorry for that. I'm going to try and do one but I'm much more focused on next week. Now this week and last week were rather stressful. 

Most of you know but next week I'm off to Disneyland pairs with my best friend. Now this is a trip that I've been looking forward to for so many months. This was a very spontaneous trip. We both love Disney but when we booked it, well we didn't really know each other that well. It's a good job our little friendship turned into what it is now. I would be simply quite lost without her and I can't think of anyone I'd rather spend the weekend with. 

For me Disneyland has been my dream since I was a little girl. The place that's filled with magic and dreams. Now as much as I'm looking forward to it, it's also scary that now the time is coming so quickly. Next Friday I'll be waking up super early and leaving the country. Me and my chummy, two perfectly capable adults have to go and adult on our own in a different country. That's a scary thought for me. I know we'll be fine. My plan is to just turn everything off, cut off from life for a bit and just enjoy the weekend with the girl that's grown to mean so much to me. 

Well this just seems to be turning into a chummy appreciation post now. I don't know. I'm aware that over the last few months I haven't been as supportive of her relationship as I could be. Little eye rolls and things like that. I feel bad. Her boyfriend is great, he adores her and makes her so happy. I need to make more of an effort but I just struggle with it. I get very attached to people and when someone threatens that I become a little territorial. That sounds awful, like I'm trying to deal with that. Like I guess I've just been so worried that she'll be stolen away because life will just get to hectic. I feel like even if we don't see each other that much in the future we will still be how we are. Like we'll just pause and then play when we see each other. 

Chummy you know I'm super happy for you, I guess I've just been living in my own little bubble and because we got super close really quickly it's odd when you're not there haha. Now if we can drag L out I promise we will all go out as a 4 and do something. Maybe the weekend made me realise that though, whether he likes it or not.....well your boyfriend is stuck with me because I will be your chummy whether you like it or not. I promise you I'll try more with him, like I sort of get it now. Like the whole boys on the brain thing a little more so I need to be more considerate to you. 


Anyway I can't wait for next weekend. We shall run around like children and meet princesses, characters and just spend the weekend immersed in all things Disney. The last few months have been hard chummy.....thankfully you've been with me every step of the way even when I've been a bitch. Thank you for helping me get through it all, you see past the smiles and just know when somethings wrong. Its meant a lot that you've actually been there for me. I love you lots and cant wait to spend next weekend in one big chummy adventure.

Lots of love,
Chloe xxx