Wednesday, 23 March 2016

Tattoo | Can I commit to it?

Hello lovelies,
Some of you may have seen on twitter that I had booked my tattoo. Fast forward a few days and I've just cancelled it. Why? It isn't because I'm scared of the pain, I have a very high pain threshold but over the weekend I've been having a lot of doubts. Much the point where I was looking at laser tattoo removals. I was looking with the mind of well if I don't like it then I can just get rid of it.

That seemed so silly, I love tattoos but am I ready to mark my skin for the rest of my life. At Adele there was confetti and one piece said hello in Adele's handwriting. I love the song, Adele and I wanted a memory from the tour. I planned to get that exact word in her handwriting tattooed on my wrist, I drew it on in sharpie and everything to see if I liked it. The truth is I loved it. I really did. I booked my appointment which would have been in about three weeks but over the weekend I've been regretting the decision already. As much as I love it I don't think I can commit to it on my wrist for the rest of my life.

I have never really wanted a tattoo until about a year ago. I would love to get a little dream catcher on my arm, partly because I think it represents me and this blog very well. However I think I made the decision about this tattoo very fast, I saw something I wanted and was adamant that I was going to get it. Even though I love it I think I would have regretted it because I didn't think about it it much, if anything it was just to say I had one. Most of my friends have tattoos and they love theirs, I just want to wait for the time when I have my heart set on it and I've thought it through a lot more. The fact that I was already looking at removals when no ink had even touched my skin was a clear sign that I was not ready to commit to one design for the rest of my life. 

I think for me its a commitment that I think through and maybe at this moment in my life I'm not ready of rotate. if I'm honest with you my mind has been in overdrive this month, I haven't told anyone and I think I need to do a post about it soon because even though I'm happy on the outside I've been in almost self destruct mode over the last few months. Getting a tattoo now would have been nice but something I wouldn't have been happy about. I even took to twitter to ask for advice and a lot of people said that if my heart wasn't in it, don't get it. I think the issue is that I made snap decision without thinking them through, I'm someone who has to have a routine because if I don't then I get stressed and very anxious. Ive been out of my routine this month and all the stress has led me to maybe make some choices that I'm not 100% happy with.

Anyway that was whats been happening over the weekend. I know that my dad will be very pleased that I'm not getting it, its not because of him its just I need to be 100% sure its what I want before I commit to it for the rest of my life.

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