Monday, 4 January 2016

Well this is awkward |

Hello lovelies,
I know I've already posted today, a nice added extra for you all. This is just a very quick post to say that my not so anonymous blog has become known to the girl I work with. Its all good I'm just very embarrassed and I don't really know what to say. If your reading this, well hello from the other side. The other side being your computer screen. I don't really know what to do now.

Its really odd knowing that I've shared so much with you all but I'm scared because a girl from work knows. Why am I bothered I should be proud of my little space online and you know what, I am. I'm not ashamed I'm just more embarrassed more than anything. I'm so worried that this is now going to change her view of me, I'm not different on my blog that I am at work. I'm just more me and I've shared more online. I don't really know why I'm writing this I mean my head is just full of thoughts that I just need to write them out like word vomit. I just can't really seem to stop writing which is annoying considering I spend half my time wondering what to write and producing shit blog posts.

Ok well if you're reading this then I should probably explain myself a little. When I didn't have a job I got bored and started a blog, my sister found my old blog so I had to delete it. In April 2014 I started this, Professional Daydreamer and for nearly 2 years this has been my own little secret. My space where anything goes, I don't care if people know but I'm just so scared that my sister will find out. She's different to what you see of her and if she found this then she would just laugh. I sort of wanted to tell you because we share a love of bloggers and youtubers, I just didn't really know how to. I hope you don't think that I've been lying, I didn't want to tell anyone because some people just don't understand why you would share your whole life online. What can I say? I honestly don't know. All I know is that its going to awkward as f*ck in work on Wednesday.

Well I still want to carry on blogging but I feel like this just makes it awkward. I'm not going to delete my blog now because it might not look it, but I've put my heart and soul into my blog and I don't want to stop now. If everyone at work finds out then I will have to delete the blog, I can't risk my sister ever finding this. We'll see what happens but until the day she does then ill keep on blogging, I won't change that but I just don't really know what to do at this moment in time.

This is just such a cringy moment for me. If you're still reading this then I'm really sorry you found out this way, I feel really stupid and if you don't like me anymore then that's fine, honestly. Just let me know if you want to take someone else to Adele just so I can be prepared.

Well, that's it from me today. Hopefully I'll see you on Wednesday if I haven't died of embarrassment by then.

Lots of love,
Chloe xxx