Friday, 29 January 2016

Lush lover lamp | Review

Hello lovelies,
I'm reviewing one of the bath bombs from Lush's valentines range and I'm very excited to share my thoughts with you. Today I'm reviewing the lover lamp bath ballistic from lush. I was very lucky that my friend got me this bath bomb with the unicorn horn. I was thrilled to get it because we all know how much of a lush addict I am.

Here's what lush say about the lover lamp "Look, this might be coming on too strong, but it seems like you should get the hots for Fair Trade organic cocoa butter. Melting into an amorous embrace of softening water, butter hearts coat skin in heavenly moisture. In a whirl of chocolate orange notes, Fair Trade vanilla absolute and Brazilian orange oil whisper sweet nothings that lift your mood. Their scent lingers in your mind and on your skin all day long." 

Ingredients |
  • Sodium Bicarbonate,
  • Citric Acid
  • Fair Trade, Organic Cocoa Butter,
  • Titanium Dioxide,
  • Fair Trade Vanilla Absolute,
  • Brazilian Orange Oil,
  • Organic Extra Virgin Olive Oil,
  • Organic Castor Oil,
  • Red Edible Hearts,
  • *Limonene,
  • Perfume,
  • Gold Glimmer Lustre.

I know I say this about a lot of lush products but this is up there with snow fairy. Yes its that good. It has such a lovely scent, exactly like a chocolate orange and we all know how much I love chocolate orange flavoured products. When I popped this little gem in the bath it fizzed and swirled around while melting the gorgeous pink hearts. This product was amazing on my skin and is really moisturising, much like the butterball but a much more exciting scent. This was the perfect bath bomb to use, I was feeling very stressed and just over emotional like always so sinking into a hot bath filled with cocoa butter was the perfect was to de-stress.

This isn't the type of bath bomb that going to make a fantastic display of colours in your bath but when the little hearts melt, they swirl around the water and make it really nourishing for the skin. Even though I like the pretty colours in my bath I find that because its got colouring in it, sometimes it makes my skin feel really dry. I'm not sure why but I always prefer products that are more simple because they just work better with my skin type. 

I love this product because it does wonders for your skin but the scent isn't to strong, its really subtle and light which is perfect for me. I definitely need to stock up on these but I think its going to have to be an online order. This was £3.95 which I think is a pretty good price for this bath ballistic because its more than just a bath bomb, its technically a mousturiser as well which makes it even better. My mum doesn't have a car at the minute so I can't do any shopping trips.....It breaks my heart but i should be okay. 

Well I hope you enjoyed that little review. Have you tried this product yet?

Lots of love,
Chloe xxx

Thursday, 28 January 2016

Anonymous blogging |

Hello lovelies,
Today I wanted to chat to you about anonymous blogging and why I do it. For me blogging is something that I adore. I love being able to write how I'm feeling, what I'm loving and all kinds of things. For me it wasn't an issue of me being embarrassed about my blog. I was scared.

I have had this blog for nearly two years now and not one person in my family knows about it. That is pretty good considering they are all extremely nosey. Up until this year only one person knew about it, they didn't know them name but they knew I had a blog and they also knew how passionate I was about it. That all changed this year when my friend text me to say she found it. At first I was shocked, then I cried and then I went to delete my blog.

Yes I almost deleted my blog because my friend found it but then I took a moment and thought, why? Why am I about to delete the one thing that fills me with so much happiness. Luckily for me she's promised to keep my little secret and not say anything about it, honestly she's keeping a lot of secrets for me lately so thanks. Like you probably didn't want to know any of them but look where we are now haha. In a way I'm happy she found it because its the one thing I kept from, I tell her nearly everything but this was the one thing I kept and I felt bad about it.

My life would be so much easier if I just told everyone about my blog because then I wouldn't have to hide things. At the minute I have a blog planner which I hide in my wardrobe under my small size clothes. I have my blog 365 book that is hidden in my make up box. I know my life would be a lot simpler if I just told my parents but for now I'm keeping it hidden.

I want to keep it hidden because I have no privacy in my house, like none. I love that online I'm in charge. No ones there to tell me not to do this or that and I can choose what I publish. I also love that my parents would never suspect me to have a blog. They don't really think I'm that wordy and would sit and commit to writing a blog. I also love the fact that they have no control over it. They can tell me what to do in my own life and have a say in that because I live at home, that's fair. Its their house their rules but online I'm free to be the person I am. I can be weird, silly, emotional and anything else I want because its mine.

If I told them then at least they would understand what I actually do with my free time. At the minute they just think I sit in my room glued to computer on Facebook or texting people. That couldn't be further from the truth. The minute I get in from work I get ready for bed, turn on my computer and write for 4-5 hours straight. My mum thinks I watch the weather to see what its like if I have to walk to work.....I don't. I watch the weather to see if its going to be sunny, if it is then I know that daylight is going to be best for my photos on certain days. I have to plan my baking around my baking day on my blog. I have to fill out my blog planner and so much more.

For now anonymous blogging works. Its not for everyone but I managed to do everything on my blog without showing my face or telling everyone. Also because its anonymous at this point I can't talk about anything. I can talk about my weight, I can chat about the cute guy in work who wears jumpers (Yeah jumpers, he sort of makes them look a bit sexy....) and I have creative control. Also I love the fact that I have the chance to connect with so many amazing bloggers.

Well I hope that post was sort of interesting. Are you an anonymous blogger? Let me know in the comments and why you keep it anonymous.

Lots of love,
Chloe xxx

Wednesday, 27 January 2016

S'mores rice krispie bars |

Hello lovelies,
Even though I'm being healthy I couldn't miss my baking post so I thought I would go for another no bake sweet treat this week. The idea of S'mores has always excited me a little and I thought I would try and make a s'mores rice kirspie bar. These are really simple to bake and are quite cheap to make as well. Obviously I haven't tried a s'more before (That rhymed) so I don't really know what to expect. Also here in the UK we don't have the same ingredients so think of this as an English version. So if you want to find out how to make these delicious bars then sit back with a nice cup of tea while I tell you all about it.

Ingredients |
185g Rice krispies.
300g marshmallows.
100g chocolate.
150g biscuits.
4tbsp butter.

Step 1 |
Chop your chocolate into chocolate chip sized pieces. You can use chocolate chips but I preferred this chocolate.

Step 2 |
Pop your butter into a large pan and gently heat. When the butter is all melted get your marshmallows ready.

Step 3 |
Add all your marshmallows to the large pan and gently heat. Use a silicon spatula to stir all the marshmallows until your have a gloriously gooey marshmallow cloud.

Step 4 |
Grab your bowl of rice krispies (No this wasn't my breakfast but I could probably eat this entire bowl...) and add your crushed biscuits. Use a spoon to mix it together so its all evenly distributed.

Step 5 |
Get your gooey marshmallow and pour it over the rice krispies. Use your spatula to mix everything together and also make sure you bring up all the rice krispies from the bottom, if not you'll be wasting precious bits of food.

Step 6 |
Get your chocolate chunks and add them to the marshmallow rice krispies. As you mix them together the chocolate melts slightly, meaning it becomes even more glorious in taste and appearance. 

Step 7 |
Use a tin with greaseproof paper in to put your marshmallows bars into. Press it all down with your spatula but to make sure it goes into every corner use your hand to press it down. Little tip for you, if you wet your hand slightly before doing this it will means your won't be covered in rice krispies but if  you're looking to become a marshmallow treat then you don't need to wet your hand.

Step 8 |
When they were cooled I cut them into 12 and then used my blow torch to toast the top of the bars. I wanted to go for a s'mores feel and I wanted to try and toast the marshmallow slightly. I then melted some chocolate I found and drizzled it over the top.

Well I hope you liked that little recipe. If you attempt it then please send me pictures on instagram or twitter. Also let me know in the comments what you think of them.

Lots of love,
Chloe xxx

Tuesday, 26 January 2016

My ideal man |

Hello lovelies,
So I thought it would fun to share with you what my ideal man is. It probably won't interest you but I feel like I have quite an odd taste in men, even thought when I see a cute guy I will voice those thoughts to the people around me.....well I have an ideal man but its not actually about looks. I like someone at the minute, like its just a little crush and that's all. I'm clearly not his type because I'm overweight, I'm not pretty and why would someone choose me when there's thousands of girls out there who are far better. But that's fine but its nice to have my mind distracted by someone new while I try and get over someone. I mean my friends trying to guess but what she doesn't know is she's already guessed right, I've just not let onto it. Now she's clearly reading this so maybe she'll think of all the names she's asked and then put two and two together haha. Now if you do work it out don't say a word and also its just a little crush, nothing obsessive or anything. I'm not sure why but for some reason he's sort of grown on me as a person. Like I didn't think much of him when I met him but now well lets just say in a strange reality if I could date him and he actually liked me....Yeah I would.

Update on this my friend actually sort of guessed last night before the post went up. Yeah so I'm now really embarrassed but I feel a bit better because someone knows.

Something people might find odd about me is that even though I say guys are cute, I don't properly start to find them attractive until I know them. Of course its nice to see a cute guy but I fall for personality over looks. I have a pretty obvious tell when I like a guy but for some reason people at work haven't worked it out. If I like a guy then I feel really comfortable around them. I don't care what I look like and I don't care what I say.

People keep telling me that a man won't make you happy, only you can do that. I get that and I know there right but I remember how I felt when I met "the guy" (We all know who I'm talking about) and I felt amazing. Yes I never dated him but I could chat to him, I didn't care what I looked like because he always said I looked nice, I could joke with him and I got to see his personality. I like liking people because for a small moment in my life, I feel happy and special. Even if they don't like me I still feel more confident and I feel good about myself. Also if I like a guy you'll find I chat about him an awful lot. I don't mean to I found that that's what happened last time when I like that guy. I was non stop chatting about him.....and with that sentence someone is clearly going to work it out and that's just a tad awkward.....Just do not mention it at work. Like honestly I think I would just quit if that information got out haha.

Anyway this is what I look for in a guy, god knows the guys I've loved and like don't exactly match the specifications but they come close to it.

Personality  |
For me personality is key. I don't care if your the best looking guy on the planet, if you've got a horrible personalty then you're not for me. I love finding out little things about people, I like to see who they really are. I want to know what shows you like, what music you like, what you dreams are. It sounds stupid but I love personality more than anything else.

Devon |
This is very odd one but it's sort of important to me. I would love to meet a guy who loves Devon as much as I do. When I little I went there every single year with my family, we had the most amazing holidays there are they are some of my best memories. It's like my home away from home and I would love to meet someone who I could make new memories with in the place that I adore. Also my dream home is in Devon, overlooking the sea and burgh island.

Conversation |
I find it so hard to talk to men. I just get really nervous around them for some reason. Saying that if I'm really chatty with a guy then there's a slight chance I like him. I love being able to chat to a guy because if I talk to men then its because I feel comfortable around them and I feel like I can be myself. Also if I can be me around them then that's how you know I like them because I don't show the proper me until I am really comfortable around you. You don't get to see the craziness and weirdness from me until I feel comfortable.

Eyes |
I'm not picky but I adore brown eyes. They are just gorgeous, its like looking into a pot of silky chocolate ganache....heavenly. I can get lost in someones eyes because I just think they are gorgeous. I have been caught starting at someones eyes before which was a little awkward but I played it cool and pretended I was daydreaming....they didn't need to know it was about them.

Looks |
No looks for me looks aren't a big thing. I don't care what they look like because its not important. I don't care if you're tall, short, thin, round or even blue. If you have a lovely personality and are genuinely a nice guy then chances are I'll like you. Saying that there is a guy at work who has really cute hair. Like its odd hair the way it falls but I just find it really cute and it adds to his personality a bit.

Music |
I love a guy who's into music and instruments. I find a guy that can plan an instrument a little bit sexy, like if its guitar or drums....not the flute or the triangle. I also think they would have to be able to handle my awful voice, even if they hate it I feel they need to just printed they haven't heard me. I like to sing so maybe if he sung as well we could do really cute duets and videos like tom and Giovanna but we would sound awful.

Doctor who |
This is sort of a big thing for me. Not many people like doctor who but for me its like a way of life. Its more than a show about time travel, its got some beautiful story lines and is actually quite helpful. It sounds silly but I think a whovian would understand where I'm coming from. I would like it if they liked doctor who just because if I got into a serious relationship with them then 12 Saturday's a year would have to be devoted to doctor who and it would be nice to share that.

Disney |
This isn't a massive deal but ideally a guy who likes Disney. I love Disney with all my heart and I can't imagine my life without it. I feel like even if they didn't like it then they would need to understand my love for it and still take me to Disney world.

Life goals |
I know that the first guy I finally date won't be forever because they'll probably get bored of me, however it would be nice if they wanted the same things as me. For me I've always wanted to have children and the idea of becoming a mum someday fills me with so much happiness. I think they would need to want that somewhere in the future.

Humour |
I adored funny people and I love guys that can make me laugh. I also love guys who laugh at my jokes, I have an odd sense of humour but I find it cute when I guy laughs at my jokes. I like people who can make me laugh because if your not funny then I just find it odd because I like to surround myself with funny people. My whole life is basically planning funny jokes and puns, I love it and especially when a guy knows what makes me laugh.

Cuddles |
I'm quite a needy person and I love cuddles. They're like a warm blanket made out of another person and I love a nice hug. Like no one really hugs me much but I like to be cuddled. I think the ideal man would need to like cuddles just because we could have film days and just cuddle all day. I know that sounds weird but I'm strange like that. Like I would love it if anyone came up to me and just hugged me. I don't care who they are, family, friend or even possible a certain guy but I just love having a cuddle. Its like all your sadness goes away because a hug just feels really nice.

So if your a single guy who lives in the UK you could be exactly what I'm looking for. I would love to meet someone who just fills my days with happiness, someone who I count down the days until I see them. Someone who loves me for the quirky person I am and who can handle my obsession with certain things.

Lots of love,
Chloe xxx

Monday, 25 January 2016

Bomb cosmetics haul |

Hello lovelies,
Now today I've got a nice little haul from bomb cosmetics. Can we still say that. I mean I don't know if its now socially acceptable to say the word *Hushed voice* bomb. Anyway for once all these bath goodies aren't for me. Its my mum and dads anniversary next month so I've got my mum lots of bath products. I would have got lush but you get great products at half the price with bomb cosmetics, I thought my mum would like a lot so that's why I went with them. If you like any of the products then click on the image and it will take you to the website.

Lemon la Vida Loca |
My mum loves anything lemony so I thought this would be the perfect bath bomb for her. It smells absolutely incredible and I'm actually a little jealous because I want it now. This was £2.29.

Lavender Musk Blaster |
This is so cute and its got a lovely scent of lavender. Luckily its not to strong but I really love this product because I find lavender so relaxing. I just hope my mum likes it as much as I do. This was £2.29

Bomb-Gamin Button |
I thought my mum would love this one because its got really cute little buttons on it. I mean I find this adorable and I really wish I had got myself one. This was £2.29.

Chocolate kisses |
This is a very pretty bath bomb and it had chocolate in the name. Me and my family are chocoholics so I feel like this is perfect for my mum. This was £2.29.

Supermum |
Whats better than a pretty pink bath? I thought this was really cute and its says mum on it in glitter, so I couldn't not get here this one. This has got lavender and rosemary oil in it. This was £2.29. 

Fantasy island |
This bliss-filled tropical bath bomb looks incredible and it smells amazing. This is the perfect product to use to de stress. I sort of want this one for myself. This was £2.29.

Goodnight honey |
This has such a lovely scent, its just like honey so your bath will smell incredible. I might have to get myself one of these to see what its like. This was £2.29.

The high life |
To me this one smells like strawberries and its just heavenly. I know this will turn that bath a gorgeous shade of pink and just smell amazing. This was £2.29.

Appleberry Butter Burst Bath Blaster |
I loved the colours on this bath bomb. It also contains cocoa butter so it will be really mousturising for the skin. This was £2.29.

Sweetie pie |
This was just to cute not to add to my basket. The colours are really pretty and it looks so good. I think my mum will love this one and I'm tempted to get one for myself. This was £2.29.

Lemon express mallow |
For an lemon lovers this will be the perfect bath product. This smells like a lemon meringue pie and I was slightly tempted to keep this one for myself. This was £2.24.

Diamond and pearls creamer |
This was filled with glitter and sparkle so this was definitely being added to my basket. Its also small so its good for days when you don't want a massive bath bomb. It smells lovely and just looks really cute. This was £2.09.

Lady marmalade |
My mum loves marmalade so I thought this would be the perfect bath product for her. Its smells so good and again I was really tempted to keep it for myself. This was £2.09.

Well I hope you liked that little haul. I couldn't go into that much detail about the products because they are a gift for my mum. If I try any of these then I'll review them all on here.

Lots of love,
Chloe xxx

Friday, 22 January 2016

Work and life worries | Very long post

Hello lovelies,
I wanted to write quite a chatty post about my thoughts I've had about my job. This is also going to be a very deep post because as I just edited it I added more. I cried while I wrote some of it, because I talk about my worries about what the people at work think of me, I also explain why I worry as well. Most of you know but if your new here, let me explain a little about what I do. I work in a supermarket cafe which is fun....sometimes. My job title is cafe assistant whereas I would say my title is more life every ones bitch. I'm not complaining because I know some people can't get a job. Its hard and I'm lucky that I have this one. I did a post about working in retail at Christmas. You can see that here. There's so many things about work that have been stressing me out like the job in general and what the people I work with actually think of me.

I think people assume that the staff that work in retail don't work hard. Serving customers every single day is mentally draining, for me anyway. I may seem to other people really confident and chatty but I get social anxiety and the thought of talking to people, I don't know it scares me. It doesn't help when customers are rude. I have to stand there and take all the shit they say to me and I am powerless because the day I tell them them F off is the day I'd be fired. Some customers are really nice but its like all the challenging customer come into the store in a group and just don't stop. 

Its just draining. Now I know that people who work in retail will get this more but when you do a job everyday that's just to help you get by, well its challenging. Some people love it and that's great. I wish this was my dream job because its what I'm doing. Its not my dream because as most of you know, I want to be a writer. I would love for this blog to make money so I can do it full time, sadly I know that I am just a drop in the ocean where blogging's concerned. It won't ever happen. I just don't really have a back up plan.

I'm fortunate that in both jobs I've had, I've got the privilege to work with some great people. In the job I'm in now I feel like I prefer it because I love the people more. I guess there's just more of us so its nice to have that social aspect. I like to act like I go out and do stuff when the truth is, I only see people at work and the only other people I see are my family. I'm a lonely person and I'm okay with that. Recently I've been doubting myself a lot. I'm worried about what people think of me at work. I know its silly but I don't trust a lot of people and I've been like this ever since I was about 14. My so called best friends at school basically just bullied me and it wasn't until I left school that I realised that's what they'd been doing. I trusted them and was really close with them. I doubt myself constantly about what people actually think of me because of how they were with me. It takes me so long to just be me in front of people but I know being me isn't good enough, I don't think it ever will be.

Being at work I have to put a constant smile across my face even when I feel like bursting into tears. I can't show them how damaged I am. I have had people judge me all my life and it scared me. It still scares me now but I just smile through it all the while my minds telling me stuff I don't want to hear.  I'm around them most of the time and I really love everyone I work with but theres always that part of me that wonders what they actually think of me. I know I'm annoying and I know that I do things that other people might see as weird but that's me. I can't change who I am so I worry constantly that I'm being judged for it. My sister tells be how strange I am and how she thinks things I do are weird. Is that just her opinion or does everyone around me think the same?

Every time I do a late shift I normally have to sweep, don't worry this is going somewhere. When I get to the end of the seating are I just take a minute to see what I'm doing. I'm sweeping up other peoples mess. I watch people go around the store and I just wonder what they do. Does that guy work up in London? Do you recon she's got her own home? All I think is what am I doing. In no way am I saying its a bad job but I don't think I would want to be there if I didn't have people I liked there. To me you either love your job but hate the people you work with, or you hate the job but the love the people you work with.

I love nearly everyone that's in my department but they're are people who I sort of need to see to just get me through the week and to keep my sanity. That sounds really stupid but they're the people who I laugh the most with and the ones who I feel most comfortable with. That sounds like I have favourites, I don't have favourites but some people have different effects on me. Like when I see one lady in particular at work I know that with one hug, I'll feel fine for the rest of the shift and I know I can have a good laugh for the rest of the day. Two of the women mummy me a lot and I love it. They mummy me knowing what I can be like, which is an odd girl full of weird vegetable puns and awkward sexual humour.

Someone else who I look forward to seeing is basically my sanity in that place. Someone who I can be odd around. Basically I can be me and I can get into deep conversations. Its also someone who I feel like I annoy a lot but she's just to polite to say. What can I say? Your my type of person and for some reason you haven't told me to go away yet. I'm like a stray puppy and I just sort of find people and I'm like yeah I like you, I'll stick with you. Someone else I like to see is someone who well, could you say they work. Probably not but I don't know, its nice to chat to someone near my own age. Also this probably sounds really bad but if this person in....I don't have to do this till. I will do it but I always get my way and they do it. That might actually be the reason I like to see them.....That sounds quite bad but they are quite fun to work with and don't judge my awful voice when they've caught me singing Adele behind the dishwasher. Also if you put these two on a late shift with me I guarantee we will be out on time and we'll have a good laugh.

Another lady is so sweet with me, yes I do get the occasional lecture about getting a new job and how I can't stay there for the rest of my life. I mean she did moan at me once for getting McDonald's on my break but I'm over that. She's just a really lovely women who I like to see because I can actually have really good chat with. The last person I love seeing is someone who swears an awful lot but she sort of inspires me a little. She has two jobs which she doesn't really like but still does them. She also is a very big lover of my cakes. I don't like to have favourite but I think its just because I'm drawn to those sorts of people.

Everyone I work with is really fun and as much as I moan about my job, they make it so much better. My job isn't stressful and its not hard but I find it difficult sometimes because I'm not doing something I love. I basically work there so I can say I have a job and so I can see all the people I work with. I just think that's the wrong reason, I like going to work to see people not to help customers or to have a fake smile on my face all day.

My issue is that I form attachments to people quickly. Its something I tried not to do this time. In this job. I did that in my last job and when one of the girls left, I was okay but the fun went a little. Then the second girl left and I just dealt with it. Then the third girl left and it was getting more and more difficult to actually want to be there. Yes there was a factor that made me stay but I left before they could. They still work there but I don't think I would have coped if I had stayed and they had left. I've formed a little attachment to everyone in my department for different reasons so I don't want to leave. But at some point lots of new people will come in and I realised that my whole life I'm going to watch people walk in and out of the job I'm in. They'll go to something better and I'll be there just wishing my life was more.

A few of these people have told me things that maybe I didn't want to hear. In the next year there's a chance that most of these people won't work with me anymore. That's okay but I think once you take the fun away from something it just turns to shit again. Well for me anyway. I don't want to leave because I know how lucky I am to have my job. At my interview I was given the job on the spot, something I've been told doesn't happen that often. In my interview I had to sell the lovely women interviewing me a piece of fruit. For some reason she liked my pitch about strawberry's and before I knew it I was in the uniform, the supermarket uniform not a strawberry costume. I said yes straight away and didn't even think about it. I guess its hard to do a job that isn't the dream. Like I wouldn't leave if someone left because I know everyone there. I stress about meeting new people. I didn't think anyone in my department would even speak to me or like me. Luckily they're okay with the quirky human I am.

I will always work in retail because the chances of me becoming a full time blogger, writer or cupcake shop owner are very slim. I guess the point of this post was for me to put into perspective how I feel about work. In June I had the worst shift and I came home, I checked no one was in and I sat on my bed and I just cried. I cried and cried and cried and I couldn't stop. Everyone else that I went to school with is going out and having adventures. One boys in Paris at uni. The girls I used to class as friends have jobs they love because its what they want to do. Whens my adventure going to start? When will I get to go travelling? When will I have the dream job? I guess right now it looks like its not going to happen.

Being at work is so nice because I have some amazing people that I work with but I know that in the nicest way, they're not permanent people in my life. I wish they were. I know them from work and I love spending time with everyone I work with, well maybe not the dark lord (Nickname, if someone I knows reading this they'll know who I mean.). Truth be told, if one of them left I guarantee I wouldn't hear from them again and that gets to me a bit. The girls I used to work with don't even text anymore. I'm the first person to text because they just don't really care. Maybe it would be different but I know that you have your friend friends and your work friends. My mums always saying how I should go out and do stuff with everyone at work. I don't think she understands that the people I work with didn't have a choice to work with me, they got stuck with me. Why would we all go out and do stuff? We all have our own lives outside of the supermarket bubble that we work in. My sisters right. When you've work there for a while everything becomes focused around the job.

Another thing I'm really worrying about is seeing Adele. I'm going with my friend and her friend but I am so worried that he's going to judge me on what I look like and how I am. I know he won't and I didn't tell my friend this but it stresses me out. I'm looking forward to meeting him but again, my social anxiety will go through the roof when I see Adele. I'm less stressed about it because my friends going and he's her best friend. Shes told me about him and I know its going to be fine but I can't stop myself stressing. A lot of alcohol will need to be had before I even leave the house that day just to make me feel a little less stressed. Right also because I know my friend like a good stalk of my blog, she told me herself and I'm cool with that but this little message I'm writing in a moment is aimed at you. You know how excited I am about seeing Adele and I can't wait. I just get quite stressy when I meet new people, I know he's lovely and I'm sure we'll have a good laugh but its just something that I have with everyone new. Its nothing personal to him but everyone new stresses me out until I actually meet them, then I'm fine. I just need to let my oddness shine through and hope he doesn't think I'm to odd to go with you both to see Adele. If he does I'll just sit outside or something, I don't want him to feel uncomfortable around me.

I don't even know what the point of this post was. This is just the stresses about work, life and my future that I've been having lately. I haven't discussed this with anyone and I mean no one. Not even my friend and I tell her pretty much everything. So if the girl I work with is reading this, she clearly won't be because theres much better blogs out there, I hope you don't see this as weird. You know I love my job and I would happily do full time but you know as well as I do, this isn't the dream and I guess this has all been bubbling away inside my head. I just needed to get it all out like word vomit. In the end this post wasn't even really about work so I added life worries to the title. Well this post went way off from what it started out as. Basically everything that I've just written is whats been clogging up my brain for the past 6 months or so.

I know I'm lucky to have a job and I love it most days but that's why I've been so focused on my blog lately. I'm trying to build it up so that maybe, just maybe one day it could be my source of income. Well I'm going to end that post there. That was like a little therapy session for me actually and I feel so much better for sharing it. If you actually managed to stick around until this part then let me know in the comments.

Lots of love,
Chloe xxx

Thursday, 21 January 2016

Blogging inspiration |

Hello lovelies,
I just want to write a little post today to chat you about blogging. Lately I've felt really inspired to write. You all know I love my blog but sometimes I can be really lazy with my posts and I find that I lack the motivation to write. Recently though I've found myself writing everyday and being really excited to get things done.

Procrastinating is one of my strong skills. I'll normally go and sit at my desk, switch on my mac, open blogger and then get distracted by Facebook stalking the cute guy from work. I enjoy it, of course I do but this week I've noticed that I've spent less time on the cute guys profile and more time actually writing. I also joined netflix this week and I thought that would pull me away from my blog. I've found that I've been writing for 5 hours solid each day and then treating myself to an episode or two of orange is the new black.

I'm really not sure why I've found this little passion for writing again but I just can't really stop myself now. That could all change now that I'm back at work but I've realised that my main focus now is my blog. Yes my job is important because it supports me blogging but its not what I want to do. Writing is the one thing I never thought I would love. I've had a lot of crazy dreams over the years but I never saw my life going in the writing direction.

I think its because I've started taking more pride in my blog pictures. I never used to enjoy editing pictures and making cute little images to post on my blog, recently though I've been loving it. They might not look like much but having something I'm proud of to represent a blog post really makes me enjoy writing the post.

Exercise. This is an odd one but since I stared being a bit healthier and exercising a hell of a lot more, I feel like I've wanted to improve all aspects of my life. Its had such a good impact on my blogging because I'm always inspired to write and to create good blog posts. Granted I've only been doing this for four days but I feel so much better for it. I never stick to diets but I think now I'm just ready for the change.

Inspiration. Someone I know once told me that my dream isn't stupid. I could achieve anything I wanted as long as I put my mind to it. I just had to believe that I could. I wrote a blog post about how I was letting go of that person but what they said will always stay with me. He had the drive to do what he loved and he was successful with it and he believed that I could be to. I think having an inspiration behind your writing is important, for me what he said inspires me because it gives me that boost to put my all into my blog. I think he knew that people constantly telling you that you cant do something is horrible. He's made me want to actually try and achieve my dreams and is probably the reason I'm still writing now. So thank you, I'm still doing what I love because of you.

Well I don't really know what that post was really. I guess I just wanted to explain why I've been blogging most days and to just let you know whats been going on. 

Lots of love,
Chloe xxx

Wednesday, 20 January 2016

Malteser cupcakes |

 Hello lovelies,
I may have mentioned before that I got myself the cake book. In other words the baking bible that is written by cupcake Jemma. I love her videos and her cakes taste amazing, I've tried them and no other cupcakes actually compare. However, I wanted to give some of her recipes a go and that's why today I'm sharing the malteser cupcakes with you. They taste almost as good as the ones I got from her shop and they were very scrumptious indeed.

The recipe made 24 cupcakes but I'm trying to be healthy so I just split the ingredients in half so I could make 12. It ended up making 10 but that might be because I over fill the cases. This is the recipe for 10/12 cakes.

Ingredients |
For the cakes |
25g Horlicks original malt.
1tsp cocoa powder.
95g Self-raising flour.
1/4tsp bicarbonate of soda.
125g caster sugar.
140g butter.
2 eggs.
1 1/2tbsp whole milk.

For the butter cream |
150g butter.
1/2tbsp Horlicks original malt. 
2tbsp whole milk.
337g icing sugar.
50g crushed maltesers.
Maltesers to decorate.

Step 1 |
Put all your dry ingredients into your bowl. I always forget what I actually put in so I'm just listing them with pictures for my own memory. So put the horlicks, cocoa powder, flour, sugar and bicarbonate of soda into a mixing bowl. Yep I think that's everything.

 Step 2 |
Use a whisk to combine all the ingredients. I find its easier to do this now before the wet ingredients are added. Also it gets rid of any lumps that may be in the mix.

Step 3 |
Add your eggs to your dry mix. 

Step 4 |
Now add the butter. I chopped mine up into little cubes because I find it combines better when its softened and broken up. Obviously it doesn't really matter if you're using a mixer, I was mixing by hand so it was easier for me.

Step 5 |
Mix the butter and eggs into your dry ingredients, do this until you have a smooth batter. When this is done, add the milk and stir it all together. It may look like the mix has split but keep beating it together and it will all combine.

Step 6 |
Now you can put your mix into your cupcake cases. I got this handy little tool yesterday and I love it. It's basically an ice-cream scoop. Yes I have an ice cream scoop but this one pushes ice cream out. I've seen so many professional bakers use this, it helps put even amount of the mix into each case and it creates less mess. I also sprinkled a little bit of crushed malteser on top before I baked them. Pop them into a pre-heated over at 170c and bake for 20minutes.

Step 7 |
While your cakes bake you can make a start on the butter cream. Pop the butter into a mixing bowl and beat it with a whisk until you have a light and fluffy pale butter.

Step 8 |
Add the icing sugar to the butter and mix it all together. Next add the horlicks to the milk and mix it together. Add this to the butter cream and beat it all together. Now add all the crushed maltesers and combine it together. I then got my piping bag and filled it with the butter cream. I didn't use a nozzle because the pieces of malteser will block it, I just cut the bottom go the piping bag leaving a hole about the size of a 10p.

 Step 9 |
Now your cakes are baked let them cool. When they have cooled grab your piping bag and start applying the butter cream. You don't have to use a piping bag but I just prefer the finished look. Pop a malteser on each cupcake and then sprinkle on some crushed maltesers. Now if you can resist them, pop them on a cake stand and get some cute pictures for instagram. If not just eat them and enjoy.

Here's what the finished cupcakes looked like. They taste so good and I'm being really good by resisting them. I've only had one bite because I'm trying to be healthy. Luckily my mum and sister have been munching through them for me. 

So if you bake these then take a picture and send it to me on instagram or twitter. Ill leave my links below. 

Lots of love,
Chloe xxx