Sunday, 13 December 2015

Blogmas day 13 | Meh...

Hello lovelies,
I feel drained today. I don't feel christmassy at all and I just feel like I'm running on empty. As I'm writing this yet another argument has broken in my house, not a surprise there! I just feel like at this time of year I should feel so happy and excited for Christmas but I just feel like I want this whole month to be over.

I am enjoying doing blogmas, as bad as my post are I'm still really happy that I have managed to upload every day. I honestly didn't think I would have it in me to post every single day, I know theres still 12 more days to go but I'm pretty sure I can do it.

Works been busy but its nice to be around people other than my family, in a nice way. I think its just nice that while everything is really stressful at work, its so nice to have a bunch of people round you that can put a smile on your face without saying a word. I'm working this week but I've got Tuesday off and me and the girls and boys (Women and men) are going out for a Christmas meal and a few (To many) drinks :). I'm really looking forward to going out, I've got my outfit ready and I'm just looking forward to spending time with a group of people that have made this year much better than I had planned it to be.

Like usual I'm lonely this christmas (Queue the Christmas song), its hit me more this year than it did the last. I feel like last year I was so caught up in myself and because the place i was in mentally wasn't great, I didn't really have time to dwell on the fact that while everyone else I know has someone, I was all alone again. I guess because its been so long since I've seen the person I'm in love with (Queue the mini violin) I just feel like my chance at happiness is slowly fading away. I want to be with someone who loves me because of the person I am, not my appearance or anything else. It doesn't help that a girl in my year at school has just had a baby and the day after she gave birth, her boyfriend proposed to her. I'm just a little sick of being on my own, id love to have someone to just come home to and cuddle when I've had a shit day at work, or when family life is just so unbearable that I can go to and feel like I'm me again.

Oh well, its the season to be jolly so ill end this post here by saying that on Tuesday I'm going to be posting a get ready with me, kind of thing and on Wednesday I'll be showing you all how to make salted caramel reindeer cupcakes (No reindeer are harmed in the making).

Lots of love,
Chloe xxx