Thursday, 20 August 2015

Am I in the wrong? | Home truths

Hello lovelies

You all know that I like to be open and honest with you all. I try to do that with this blog as I like you all to be aware of situations or just little things that go on in my life. Ive been holding back writing this post for a while. Partly because I know that if someone I knew found this, I feel they could get angry about it. With that in mind I feel like I need to get your opinions, you need to know the situation to tell me if I'm the big bad wolf in this situation.

Basically the problem is my sister. Don't get me wrong, I love her with all my heart and I couldn't imagine life without her but...well she's just very difficult to live with. Now I know that most siblings argue a lot but it feels like were on another level. She accuses me and my parents of shouting when we're not. She speaks to us like utter crap in our home. Now my mum and dad have just learnt to live with it. Me on the other hand, well I stick up for myself and my parents. I'm the first to admit that I'm not perfect. I argue with my parents and I go off and slam my bedroom door. But she's on a whole new level. I stuck up for my mum today, my sister accused her of shouting when she didn't. I said to my sister that she was wrong, my mum didn't shout and her response to me was that she didn't care for my opinion told me to f*ck off.

Tell me if you think this is normal. Please bare in mind that she is nearly 22, a full grown adult. My sister is always moaning at my parents, either because my mum didn't put her washing out after its been in the washing machine, or because my dads asked her not to keep leaving the bedroom light on for hours on end when she's not in the room. My sisters response is to be rude to my mum and dad. She's bad with my mum but the names she had called my dad, all for just asking politely not to do something in the home that he is working hard for everyday to provide us. Here are just some of the names she has called him. D*ckhead. Kn*b. She's told him to F*ck off and mind his own business. The worst is when she calls him a c*nt. I think you all know the word I'm talking about. Now to me that's the worst word you can call someone. I don't swear in front of my parents, I do to myself or when I'm on my own but I don't make a habit of it. I think its just so disrespectful to call someone that. Let alone the man who has provided you with everything you needed since you were a baby.

I will admit that sometimes I just get frustrated and snipe at her even if she hasn't done anything. She just gets to me. Its like she has two personalities. One day she will be so rude and spiteful, she'll apologies and the next day act like nothing ever happened. I just see through the fake apologies now. I don't see the point of forgiving her when I know that she will do it again. I find it very hard now, living at home has become a living nightmare at times. I need to know that my family aren't just being over sensitive. The most frustrating part is that she's not like this with other people. They think she's god's gift, a perfect angel that everyone loves. I'm sick of being made out to be the big bad wolf in the situations. It gets turned round on us, even though she's the problem. 

If I manage to get a job that pays enough, or get more hours at work then I'm considering moving out.  I love living at home. Yes it can be frustrating at home but my parents don't ask for much, just respect in their home. I don't know how much more I can take, this is the one thing that I can focus on when she's being like this. Considering that she lives here rent free I think her attitude is just disgusting.

Am I in the wrong? Do you think this is normal or fair that she treats us like this? I know that if she saw this then she would go mad. I'm just sick and tired of being made to act like she's perfect. I need to vent and this is the one thing that I have always kept to myself.

Anyway, I'm sorry that I unloaded all that on you. I just really need to know your honest opinions.

Lots of love,
Chloe xxx