Tuesday, 21 April 2015

Life update |

Now you may or may not have noticed that I haven't been on my blog as much as I usual am. I have been scheduling my posts more often and have got into a blog routine, where I post on Tuesdays' Thursday's and Saturdays. Now I like it this way but I still want to do posts whenever I feel like. 

The reason I've been away from writing for a few weeks is because I started a new job. Now its only part time and might only be temporary, they might keep the temps on permanently but for now its a little bit of money coming in to support my writing. I'm contracted 16 hours a week which is split into four 4 hour shifts. I now work in the cafe of a supermarket and that's why I've not been as active on my blog. 

Let me take you back a few weeks. I got a call asking me to come in for an interview on the 8th of April. I went along to it, not expecting anything to come from it. Long story short, I was offered the job and I took it. I then went on the following Saturday to my induction day where I was filling out paperwork and booklets. I did my first shift last Wednesday, then Thursday and then worked over the weekend.

I really love the women who work there, they are all really sweet and patient with me as I'm still learning. It's very different from my last job, in the social aspect. At my old job all of us started together, it was a new store so everyone  was in the same position. We formed quite close bonds and friendship's which is something I really miss from that job. Its not like that where I am, I feel like I'm in the way. Also my sister used to work in the department I'm working in, she works in a different part of the store now but I keep on getting compared to her. I expected it to happen but I'm finding it difficult to fit in.

I feel like I cant be me. Being me means letting my funny and quirky sense of humour loose on a whole new group of people, it also means that my sister will be embarrassed. At my old job I could be me because none of my family worked there, I could talk about things that were upsetting me to my friends at work without it being spread around. I've only done four shifts and although I love the women who work there, I know I wont have what I had at my last job. I have to be careful of what I say because that will all be passed onto my sister. I don't mean talk badly about her, of course I dont , I just know that everything I say will be passed on. I feel like I'm under constant scrutiny, on a constant comparison to my sister. How can people get to know the real me, when the real me is an embarrassment to my sister.

Any way that's whats been happening over the last few weeks. I might just give up on my blog schedule because I want to post more frequently again. I will also be writing my interview tips post. I feel like I've had so many that I've become quite an expert on what to do.

Bye for now xxx

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