Thursday, 9 April 2015

Happy 1st Blogiversary |

Hello

So today is my blogs 1st anniversary/birthday. I remember this time last year I was debating whether or not to start a blog. I didn't think anyone would actually read it and I certainly didn't think I would carry it on for a whole year. For me my blog was a hobby that I started when I didn't have a job, when I got my job I was so happy and shared that with all of you. I know I quit my job but I did that for a few reasons, writing being one of them. I finally found something that I was interested in and I wanted to see if I could make it work. Granted I'm not the best writer but I love sharing my thoughts with my readers. I know my audience is small and I only have 8500 views but to me its more than statistics, I have made blogging friends who, even though I have never met them, I value the opinion of greatly.

Blogging has also helped me gain confidence with sharing my opinions. When I typed my first blog post last year, I remember being very caution of what I was putting online. I know everyone has a responsibly as to what I share online but I have learnt that I can state my opinions and have discussions on topics that I would never dream of talking about with people I know. I think older generation's see the Internet as a dangerous place and I do agree in some respects but as long as you know how to use the Internet then its a brilliant place to be.

 This pasty ear has also been filled with little things that have filled me with so much happiness. Tanya Burr liked my post about her nail varnish on tumblr, Louise from sprinkleofglitter liked my post about her on tumblr, Harry Judd replied to one of my tweets and Ellie Steadman replied to my tweets. These are all tiny little things that have me me smile but if I didn't have my blog than they wouldn't have happened.

I just want to say that the past year hasn't been all smiles and rainbows, its been hard for me in some places. I've had to deal with things that I really didn't expect would happen (Don't worry its nothing to do with family or illness, its something else that no one else that I've dealt with personally), but that's led to a plot line for a book I'm writing. I think its made me a stronger person but it still hurts a little. I think we can all learn from experience's, good or bad but its how we let it effect us. I was watching Princess Dairies a few weeks ago and there was a lovely quote that has just stuck with me, "Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something is more important than fear. The brave may not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all.". This for me represents my life now. I cant not do something because I fear the outcome. 

I also started this blog because in my house I feel invisible. My family love me and I love them, it just feels like I go by unnoticed most of the time. They acknowledge that I'm there but when I speak everyone just talks over me. I can be talking about something with mum and dad and my dad just changes the subject and just stops my conversation. I don't know why it bothers me, its been the same all my life and I know my dad doesn't mean to do it, I just feel like I don't have a voice in my own home. That's why this blog means so much to me, I can ramble on about anything and I wont be interrupted. I love the freedom I have on here to talk about things I love, things that are upsetting me and I can do this without anyone changing the subject. I still find it so amazing that people actually take the time to read what I have to say and they take the time to write such lovely comments.

I feel like I have created a friendship group online, filled with people that know little bits about me that no one else knows. I can ask them things without judgement and we all help each other. All the Beau bloggers are all so supportive and they leave me so any lovely comments. They are all amazing bloggers and I love reading all about their lives, their music taste, art and other posts. I feel like even thought I'll probably never meet these people, I can still relate to them in so many ways.

When I started this blog I didn't want to tell anyone I knew about it, it was my own little thing that I did and that I enjoyed. I got to know people this year that are genuinely so sweet and supportive and I felt ready to tell them. I still haven't told my family and I love that. That sounds horrible but I know that my family would see it as something weird, a stupid idea that wont go anywhere. I guess the people I met this year had faith that I could be more that what I had intended, I didn't just have to be the shop girl, I could actually do something I loved and I'm really happy I told them about this.

I also want to say massive thank you to Bria Lou. You have been so supportive and have given me advice when I needed it most, I know I don't know you properly but I really hope we meet one day. We started our blogs around the same time and your blog has grown so much, I love all your posts and I know that you would help me with mine if I needed it. I wish you all the luck for the future, I guarantee you'll have books on the shelves of waterstones and will probably be on the best sellers living your dreams.

Well that's about it for this post. I hope you liked it and let me know in the comments what you think I could improve on my blog, I want to make it the best it can be.

Bye for now xxx

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