Monday, 30 March 2015

Monday 30th March 2015 | Dream journal

Now over the past week I have been watching a lot of horror films, mainly about clowns which is insane considering I have a phobia of them. I guess I just want to face my fear, it didn't work out that well considering these clowns have been the main reason I cant sleep and when I do, they have been making appearances. Now I shouldn't have watched clown films because I'm so scared, I just find it so scary how they have a painted on smile and they just look so creepy. Sorry to anyone who is a clown by trade but you know, just don't come near me and we will get along just fine, haha

So last night when I finally managed to get to sleep, I was in this weird house. It was dimly lit with candles and I was looking for my family, out of the corner of my eye I kept on seeing this clown, hearing its footsteps, I could hear it breathing. When I found my family I told them but they said I was being silly. We left the house and then the whole dream changed, I was then at Centre parks with my parents and I was in this tiny little room. My phone broke in my dream and I kept on waking up to find that my dream was real, I was stuck in a dream cycle that only broke when I woke up for real. At Centre parcs I kept on seeing this person hiding outside my window, it got closer and closer and that's when I realised it was the same clown.

The next part of my dream saw me in the bake off tent. I was really happy that I was on the great British bake off but I was competing against Mary Berry, its safe to say that Mary won. In my dream I kept on seeing this clown, I was then walking home in the dark and it was still following me. I turned around to be greeted by this monstrous smile and it grabbed me. At that point I woke up in a panic, I switched my telly and my lamp on to check that I was alone. I then had to sleep with Hollyoaks playing in the background. I wont be watching any more clown horrors so hopefully that will be it for the clown dreams.

I looked on dreamforth to see what it said about my weird dream and to see if there's more meaning behind it than what I think. Here's what it said about Houses "If the house is empty, it connotes feelings of insecurity. Shifts and changes in the house indicate change and progression of your personality and beliefs." now this sounds a little relatable, I have been having feelings of insecurity lately and it has been playing on my mind a lot.

Here's what it said about clowns "If you have a fear or phobia of clowns, the clown may symbolise an unknown figure who may want to hurt you in some way. This may be someone who is taking advantage of you or not showing you their true self." Now I don't know of anyone who would want to hurt me, I just feel like I dreamt of the clown because I have been watching horror movies with clowns in.

I also looked up stalking as in my dream the clown was following me wherever I "To dream that you are being stalked implies that you are refusing to deal with issues in your life. These issues will not disappear if you simply choose to elude them. You must face them. If you are being stalked in real life, then this is being incorporated into your dream.". Now I had something in my life that I haven't dealt with, I've just allowed myself to push it aside and assume that I can get over it with the help of self help books. (Its nothing serious so don't worry).

It was really interesting to see what my dream could have meant and some aspect's are true, but if I'm completely honest I think that I dreamt of clowns because I stupidly watched a film with them in. here's a tip: If you have a phobia of something, don't watch a horror film about it.

Bye for now xxx

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