Saturday, 31 January 2015

Saturday 31st January 2015 | Dream journal

Last night I had a bit of a weird mix of dreams that merged together. I was in a pub with some of my friends, I don't know where this pub was but it looked like the pub on hot fuzz. I was playing on one of the fruit machines and I won £1500 and I cant tell you how excited I was. I had to get my friend to claim the money for me because I was to young to be using it. The next part of my dream involved me, my aunt and cousin in a sweet shop that was at the bottom of a really tall house which had loads of floor. I got dumped with look after this girl that I really don't like and I she kept on climbing the stairs and going up to the highest floor of the house. There weren't  normal stairs, they were just like ladders and they were really narrow. I had to make sure she didn't fall down them so I had to follow her all the way to the top, I called her mum and asked when she would be home but she said she didn't know, at that point the girl was really rude to me so I climbed back down and left her there. 

The next part of my dream involved with really weird dentists office that had really old fashioned furniture in it, Tom Felton was in the waiting room as well which was very odd. I think he keeps popping up in my dream because I'm watching murder in the first. When we left the dentist we were in a car driving down these little country lanes. Alfie Deyes was there as well and we got out the car and had to go and look for help, I don't know what had happened but we had to walk over all these rocks and buts of wood that were just floating on the water, I panicked and told Alfie that we needed to go back. We went back to the car but the car had turned into a caravan and my mum told me that there were these monsters that were going round the area, we had to hide and as soon as I hid I heard the noise of the door open and heavy footsteps coming toward where I was hiding, I was so scared. After that I woke up.

I looked on dreamforth and this is what it said "To dream about being at a dentist's office suggests that there is occasional concern about the honesty of someone close to you. You may sense that somethings not quite right with them, but in the long term, this concern will benefit you". To dream that you are scared denotes that you are experiencing feelings of low self-worth and uselessness. You no longer hold power over some aspect of your life. You may feel rage towards someone or something". I don't really thing this really means anything to my life but it was nice to have a little look and it was quite interesting.

Thursday, 29 January 2015

Monthly favourites | January 2015


Make up;
I'm going to include nail varnish in this because I don't wear a lot of make up. This month I have been loving the Tanya burr nail varnish in the shade Little duck. I think this is such a beautiful colour to brighten up your January, its a lovely spring colour and just makes me really happy.

Lush product;
The drummers drumming wand is really lovely. It got two little bells on it so when you wish it round your bath it makes a cute little sound, well that was until they fell of in the bath. This is a really lovely product that was in the lush Christmas range. I like that it has a really light fragrance and it smelt lovely and relaxing. It also made the water really soft, that sounds weird but it made my skin feel really soft. It turns the bath a pale orange and create really glistening and silky bubbles. This is pink on one side and yellow on the other.

The perks of being a wallflower. I watched this for the first time yesterday and I loved it. I hadn't read the book so I didn't have the knowledge of the story and in a way I think that was a good thing. I didn't have something to base it on and point out pieces they cut out. I really loved the whole film and I think the acting was brilliant, also I just want to point out the I think Emma Watson has a great American accent. I really want to read the book so I can compare it to the film and get more detail, I think when books are made into films they take so many little details away which I love knowing. 

I have been grazing on crackers a lot. I do love crackers and when you add butter and a teeny tiny smidge of marmite my taste buds go into overdrive. I cant ever express my love for this simple food but yeah I have been nibbling on crackers whilst writing a lot this month.

TV series;
I have two favourites this month, I just think there has been some amazing TV on this month. I'm going to start with murder in the first, if you live in America then its already been aired but here in the UK it air in the 16th January and I was so excited. I partly wanted to watch it because Tom Felton is in it but when I watched it I was hooked with the main charters. There individual stories are brilliant and I'm hooked, I'm eagerly awaiting tomorrows episode. It's on fox at 10pm.

Last but certainly not least is Top Gear. As most of you regular readers may have gathered, I'm not the typical girly girl. Someone even said to me a few months ago "I did no picture you as a Top Gear girl" and I was slightly proud. I love Top Gear and I have my dad to thank for that. I have grown up with a pretty good knowledge and love of cars (I cant drive, just to let you know). My dad loves Top Gear and I think that has rubbed of on me and my sister. Some people find Jeremy Clarkson offensive but I wont lie to you all, while half of the stuff he says is offensive the other half is quite funny......Feel free to judge me for that opinion. I really love this show and I think this has helped develop my love of fast cars and beautiful driving roads. 

Strange one this month and very immature. I have been spending a lot more time with my little cousin and I love doing that as its funny to hear the little conversations my cousin comes out with and its pretty funny watching the thought process they go through. We were reading Barbies swan lake which is a book I used to love when I was little, I remember that my dad got me the doll which had beautiful glittery wings that lit up with a gorgeous blue glow. Its a really childish book but it brought back memories of my childhood and made me appreciate what I had when I was little.


Ellie steadman | Channel | Twitter | Blog

I have really been loving Ellie's videos, she has such a lovely spirit and her personality just shines through in her videos. She is also a massive Disney fan which makes me love her even more considering my love of all things Disney. Her videos are really great and this is a very weird thing to say but I love her wallpaper and I really want to know where she got it, yes I am jealous of her wallpaper because its just so pretty. I think you should all head on over to her channel and subscribe because I think you will love her.

Something I need by one republic but the cover version by another amazing person on Youtube, click the link to go to her channel because she has such an amazing voice, just  head on over to her channel and have a listen for yourself.

My cookie monster onesie. Its great for just laying about writing my blog posts.

Knitting, yep that's right I've started knitting. Sometimes I do wonder if I'm actually an 80year old living in a 17year olds body. I wanted to try it and well one thing led to another and well......just take a look at this but little bunny. 

Thank you Dodie for uploading the video I got this idea from and it actually taught me how to knit. If any of you are look for a way to seem socially awkward then just take up knitting, I have nothing to loose considering I'm a pretty awkward person anyway so one more thing wont make to much of a difference.

Thanks for reading.

Bye for now xxx

Wednesday, 28 January 2015

Wednesday 28th January 2015 | Dream journal


I didn't really know whether or not I should write this one, I woke up almost in tears like the dream had escaped and got into the normal world. Parts of my dream were really great but it just turned nasty towards the end. So here goes, I dreamt that a family member was going up the secondary school and the school was next door to us, I feel protective over my family so maybe that's why we were constantly checking if we could see them to see if they were okay.

 The next thing I know some family friends came over but they brought their son who was my age, this seemed weird because all their children are grown up and they don't have kids my age. I wont lie to you all, I had a little bit of a dream crush on him, he was sweet, trendy and wore "geek" glasses and apparently that's that what I look for when looking for love, I don't why I dreamt this person up, I don't know anyone like him so it was very strange but nice at the same time, haha. They had these boxes which after they left I was told they had things for me in them from the family friends and their son. I opened them up to see two beautiful baby pink antique jewellery boxes and a trunk. They were the most beautiful thing I had seen. They had little gold detailing around them and had a gorgeous floral print on the top of them. It had a not in it that said "The ones like you had when you were little", Ive never had anything like that, not even when I was little so that was odd but hey, a dreams a dream for a reason. After they left we had to crawl through all these little hiding places dotted around the house, I don't know where I was going but it was leading me to weird and wonderful places, I was going on my own little adventure. They looked a little bit like this;

It jumped forward to me and my parent (I'm not saying which one just because I don't really want to, if they saw it they might get upset about what my dream was about) sitting on our couch watching TV, there was a clip of the school next door and this girl  saying how she had hit my cousin because he sneezed, I rewound the TV so I could hear it again to make sure I knew who she was, I wanted to get her in trouble for what she had done. My parent to me how selfish I was, I think it was because I rewound the TV to look at the clip again but it escalated into a massive argument, mostly one sided.  I ran into my room crying and I then I woke up gasping for breath. I was really panicked. I don't have a clue why I was arguing with them but it was horrible, my parents are so lovely and kind and they would never do that but I was really scared in my dream, well more like a nightmare.

I looked on dreamforth to see if I could make sense of this dream, "To dream that you have a crush on somebody mirrors the same fondness and physical attraction you have for a particular person in your waking life". No comment on this particular bit of information ;).....lets move on shall we. "To dream that you are given a gift suggests your good luck in prosperity and love. You are being recognised for a job well done and others are respecting you for it". I haven't really received any gifts lately so I don't think this means anything. On to the argument "To dream that you are in an argument implies that you are deeply disturbed about some inner struggle or situation in your life. Pay attention to the other person in the argument and the subject matter. Perhaps this person is mirroring a certain personality trait that you possess". I don't think this has anything to do with the argument in the dream, maybe I'm just letting stress get to me.

OneRepublic - Something I Need (Cover by Becky CJ)

I think this is my favourite version of this song. I've had this on repeat for weeks, such an amazing singer. 

Bye for now xxx

Monday, 26 January 2015

Monday 26th January 2015 | Dream journal

Last night I dreamt that I was at a cinema, it was really modern and had loads of Starbucks dotted around the place. I couldn't find the ticket office and was just wandering round for ages. I got lost in the queue for a Starbucks so I ended up just leaving the queue. When it got to the time when the film was about to start I started to see a few people from my old school and they were all going to see the same film as me. At this point I didn't have a clue what I was going to see I everyone was really excited about it. I lost my bag and I only realised when I got into the cinema screening room, I had to clamber past all these people but I was annoyed that I was going to miss this film. I dreamt that it was another Harry Potter film where it showed you what everyone did after the war. It got to a crucial moment aka, when Draco Malfoy appears and then I was out of the room. I was looking for my bag in the corridor but it had changed, there were tonnes of doors, big and small and every door I opened led me into a really weird room. I finally found my bag tucked underneath a plant and then everyone came out from the screening room. I was asking my sister loads of questions and she told me all about the film.I find it very odd that I dreamt there was another Harry Potter but maybe it is a sign that J.K Rowling should write just one more. 

I looked on dreamforth like I always do and here's what it said "To dream of losing something reflects a similar scenario in your waking life. Perhaps you have misplaced an important item, but have not yet realized it. Your dream may be a reminder to put some order in your life. You are swamped with work and this has been resulting in distractions. Do not lose focus and tackle a chore one at a time. Figuratively, losing things in your dream may indicate missed opportunities, past relationships, or neglected facets of your life. You may properly gauge the emotional context and interpretation of your dream by paying attention to the item lost in your dream.” I don't think this applies to me but I do lose a lot of things so hopefully this doesn't mean I've lost something important.

Bye for now xxx

Thursday, 22 January 2015

Make up brush collection | Real Techniques

I don't wear a lot of make up and I don't wear it that often but I wanted to show you the brushes I have and which ones I normally use. Obviously this wont be for everyone but if you want to take a look then feel free to keep reading. The creators of these brushed have a YouTube channel which I'm sure you have all heard about, its called Pixiwoo and they do amazing make up tutorials and are both beautiful and stunning, I obviously wont look like that when I have on make up but its nice to just try the looks out, even if your not going anywhere.

I just want to start of by telling you about the Real Techniques set I got in the boxing day sales, well the set my mum got me. I got the travel essentials set which I really wanted to get so when my mum got it out of the shopping bag I got a bit excited. This was an absolute bargain price, I don't know if asda made a mistake but they were on sale for £5.25! Just take a minute for that to sink in. I was so shocked at the price, these brushed retail at £20.99 at I got the for a quarter of that price. I really love all the brushes and it had the one I needed which was the blusher blush. Like all the sets from real techniques, it came in the little case which doubles up as a stand. I don't normally use the stand as I just shove them all in my make up brush pot, but for the sake of the photo I kept it in.

Left to right | Essential foundation brush, Domed shadow brush and Multi task brush

I already have a brush that I use for my foundation for I might use this more to contour, I think its better because it had a nice rounded point. To be honest I don't wear make up a lot and I'm not to bothered about contouring my face but for those days where for some reason its necessary I will probably use this.

I like the domed shadow brush because I feel its easier to apply my eye shadow with and its also nice to gently blend colour.

I really wanted the multi task brush because it is perfect for blusher, I was using one of the other brushes I have but I felt it was to small and didn't apply as well. 
 Below is my collection of brushes that I have, I don't use all of them but its nice to have them just in case, if I'm honest I don't really have a clue what the purpose is for all the different brushes but with these I can manage to make myself look slightly less ugly so they do serve a purpose.

What a lovely 'arty' shot.

I have the core collection which was £20.99 from superdrug, I use most of these but there are some that I just don't feel the need to use. The core collection does not include the essential foundation brush that is in the picture below, I just put all the Orange brushes together.
Left to right | Buffing Brush, Contour brush, Essential foundation brush, Pointed foundation brush and Detailer brush

I use normally use the pointed foundation brush to dot all the foundation on my face and then I use my buffing brush to blend it all in. I think it looks much better to buff it in because then it just blends better than just smearing it on with your fingers.I use the contour brush to blend in my concealer, I know it should be used to contour my face but it feels nicer to blend my concealer with this brush. I actually don't use the detailer brush partly because I don't know what its used for and also because I'm not trying to make myself look like a work of art, I don't need to add detail. What you see is what you get. I could see myself using it if I were face paints, which I actually think are quite fun. If I ever want to turn my face into a butterfly then I will be sure to use this brush.

I also have the eye starter set which I really love. I actually got this on amazon for £11.99 but from superdrug its £20.99. Like before the domed shadow brush was not included in the set but I just grouped the colours together.
Left to right | Base shadow brush, Domed shadow brush, Deluxe crease brush, Brow brush, Accent brush and the Fine liner brush
I use the base shadow brush to apply my eye shadow so I can swoosh (What a technical term) the colour over my eye lid. I then use the deluxe crease brush to blend the colour in and to bring the colour up into the crease of my eye. I like to use the accent brush in my inner corner to apply a lighter colour to draw accentuate my eyes, what a lovely word. Accentuate. I've gone of on a tangent, sorry. I don't use the liner brush because I don't wear eye liner and that because I cant because when I apply eye liner it just looks like someone has attacked my eye with a black sharpie pen, I don't know what it is but I just cant apply eye liner properly. I use the brow brush to do my eye brows, I use this lightly and in small brush strokes to fill in my eyebrows. I have naturally bushy eyebrows but there are parts that just need to be filled in a little so this brush is perfect.

Well I hope you all enjoyed that pointless post about my make up brush collection. 

Bye for now xxx

Wednesday, 21 January 2015

Wednesday 21st January 2015 | Dream journal

Sorry I haven't uploaded one of these in a few days, I just haven't been able to remember and of my dreams. SO last night I dreamt that I was in a forest but there were little screens in different parts of the forest that were playing the harry potter films. I was watching little snippets of each film and then wondering through the forest to get to the next one. It wasn't a scary place, all the trees had fairy lights draped through the branches and it looked like a mini wonderland. I reached one part of the forest that was a little restaurant which had a breakfast buffet, what can I say; Food I constantly on my mind. I got myself a lovely big full English breakfast and walked to the next harry potter film. It was a really surreal dream but it was so wonderful and peaceful, I was on my own the majority of the dream but when I was with other people it was just fun.

I looked on dreamforth and this is what it had to say "To dream that you are in or walking through the forest suggests a period of change in your life. Listen to your intuition. This dream can also suggest that you desire more simplicity in your life. You may be feeling burdened by the daily grind of life.  I also think it was really peaceful because I really love the Harry Potter films and I love the whole idea that surrounds magic and who doesn't want to go to Hogwarts. I think dreams like this are a lovely little distraction from normal life.

Bye for now xxx

Monday, 19 January 2015

It's worse than I thought |


It's the last day of my holiday and I still haven't been in the pool. So basically today I will be doing a bit of a weird post, I'm currently on holiday at center parcs and have literally just this second realised how conscious I am about my body. I have always had the attitude of not caring what people think about me, which is weird considering I think people are constantly judging me for my appearance. I guess it was never clear to me just how much I hate my body. I'm happy the weight I am which sounds contradictory but it's not my weight that bothers me, it's that I can't find nice swimsuit to wear that hide the wobbly bits I dislike on my body, it's that I have to get men's swim shorts which aren't fitted like women's so they then look like parachute on my theighs.

I have just come out of a changing room feeling like I was going to burst into tears if people saw me which is something I have never done. I've never felt that self conscious. I don't feel like me anymore, I have been the weight I am now for a while and it's just sort of grown on me quite literally as well as being part of my mental state. For so long I have accepted the way I look but I today I just didn't feel like me. If I had a really nice pair of women's swim trunks then I think I would have felt more confident. The womens swim trunks I saw a few weeks a ago were £30 which to me is a ridiculous price to pay for something I won't wear a lot. It annoys me that clothes for plus size ranges are way over priced, I mean there's not that much more material and the cost of material can't be that much. I understand a slightly higher price but it seems like they double te price of the clothes.

I'm sorry for this post but to be honest I'm just feeling down, I'm not feeling me and that's something I want to feel again. 

Bye for now xxx

Sunday, 18 January 2015

Who can shout the loudest competition |


This is just going to be a short post today about family. I love my family but sometimes it can feel like I'm living in a who can shout the loudest contest. I don't mean arguing, no not at all but what I mean is that trying to get a word in a conversation can be challenging. If I'm talking then the chances are someone else will interrupt, instead of letting me finish I will be over shadowed by anther person.

When all the family are together it is a bit ridiculous, so many people try to speak at once which means everyone gets louder just to be heard. Now me and me cousin are the quietest of the family so we just sort of chat to each other instead. My whole life can seem like a who can shout the loudest competition just because its like a fight to be heard, I sometimes feel like what I have to say is just not important, there's always someone who has something more interesting to say. What I find funny is when my family say "what's wrong, you've been really quiet". I haven't been quiet, in fact I have been talking for ages but because I dint feel like entering this contest, they just assume I'm upset or quiet.

Does anyone else have a family like this? I love them to pieces but sometimes it would be nice for people to actually listen to me and not interrupt. I think this is why I love this blog so much, I can talk to you all about things that I want to talk about without being interrupted.

Thanks for reading.
Bye for now xxx

Friday, 16 January 2015

Friday 16th January 2015 | Dream journal

So last night I dreamt that I was running, I wasn't running in a race but I was running away. I was in a shopping center at first and I started running away, I don't know why I was running but I couldn't stop. I ran through doors that normally lead me to places I know but in my dream these doors were leading me to knew and scary places, not scary as in frightening but scary in the way that they were new and unfamiliar. 

I looked on dreamforth and here's what it had to say about running "To dream that you are running away from someone suggests that you are attempting to elude a certain situation. You refuse to admit accountability for something you have done. In particular, if you are running from an attacker or other danger, then it implies that you are reluctant to confront hardship and obstacles. To dream that you are trying to run but your feet aren't moving as fast as you wish, may indicate that you feel unworthy of praise and appreciation. You feel undeserving of something. To dream that you are running alone implies that you will gain prosperity faster than your peers. Perhaps you are trying to evade an issue that you know is unfavorable or is negative. To dream that you are running with others represents future wealth and rewards.".

I don't think I was running away from someone but I was definitely running alone. I think that because the path I'm choosing to live my life and what I have decided I want to do is so different to anything people I know do, I think my dream mimics the feelings of isolation. I'm running this race in my life alone because at the minute I don't want to tell others what I want to do in fear what they will say. 

Bye for now xxx

Thursday, 15 January 2015

Bomb cosmetics |

I recently purchased some bits from bomb cosmetics for my mum. Because they are all so gorgeous I felt the urge to blog about them, I'm pretty sure mum wont mind. I normally go for lush products but I decided to look at this website because every time we go to Devon there's a really cute soap shop that sells bath bombs, soaps and all lovely bits like that. I remember that I got something from this brand and it was really good, I didn't remember what it was called for a long time and lucky for me it popped into my head just after Christmas. I think you should all pop over to their website because they do some really lovely products and they are cheaper than lush, so if lush is just a bit to expensive, I know it is for me sometimes, then this is the perfect place to go. 

So I got all these bits in the sales and they were so cheap. I will put the prices I paid for everything underneath the pictures but I might not be able to give you the normal price as these are from the Christmas range.

They came in this really pretty lilac box which says on the sides  "Keep calm and have a bath". I thought this was really lovely and colourful. When I ordered from lush the box wasn't very colourful and it just seemed like a lot more thought went into the packaging. I still love lush bit I just prefer this packaging.

In side the box it came with a free little air freshener and a tiny booklet that opens out. It tells you about the some of the products used in making then and gives you other pieces of information. I think this is quite interesting, I know other people might just throw it away but I really loved reading it. I also really liked the packing peanuts in it as they were lovely and colourful which is a nice change 
from the normal ones.

Rockin' Robin  £1.15
First I got my mum this really cute bath fizzer called 'Rockin' Robin' its really cute and smells quite chocolaty. Obviously I'm just smelling these while they are still packed but I can smell chocolate and I think we can all agree that its one of the best smells in the world. I thought my mum would like this because its got tiny glittery gold stars in it and a tiny little robin on the top.

Snowdrift Bath Creamer  £1.05

Ginger Bath Blaster  £1.15

    I got the Ginger bath blaster simply because it look really cute. I thought my mum would like it        because its pink and glittery and what girl doesn't like a bit of sparkle. This has a lovely warming ginger scent and to me this smells like Christmas.

Stocking Fizzer Blaster  £1.15
This one looked really cute and full of sparkle. I feel there is a theme running here with glitter but I just get lured in. This one smells like strawberry's and is just a nice and light fragrance. 
Chillie Millie Bath Blaster  £1.15
I thought that the chillie Millie bath blaster looked really cute. Its designed like a little snowman face and I just think it really lovely. This one smells quite fruity and I cant wait for my mum to use it. I think that its quite funny that this little snowman will, well I think that's quite funny.

Snowdrift Bath Creamer  £1.05
This bath creamer came wrapped in a hot pink wrapping paper and they even hand wrote what it was on the product, I think this is such a great personal touch. It is a small white ball which has little glitter bits on it that make it look like a glistening snow ball. This bath creamer has Frankincense and ginger oils that make it smell incredible.

I thought I would try an 'arty shot' of the products, I don't know if its worked but to be honest I don't really care. I hope you all enjoyed this little haul of the presents I got for my mum, its shame they aren't for me but she deserves a nice little treat, after all she puts up with me all the time.

Bye for now

Wednesday, 14 January 2015

Liebster Award Nomination |

Thank you Charly for nominating me, I think you should all pop over to her blog because I really enjoy it and I'm pretty sure you all will as well. 
The rules are simple:
1. Thank the person who nominated you
2. Answer the questions given by the nominator
3. Nominate another 11 bloggers (with 200 or less followers) and link them
4. Create 11 new questions for the nominees to answer
5. Notify all nominees by social media/blogs

Charly's Questions |
1. One place you would absolutely love to visit?
I would love to visit Italy because I looks beautiful and I would love to learn about the culture.

2. Current favourite song?
I have been slightly obsessed with Sam Smith recently and I have been loving his song 'Make it to me'. His album is basically an album all about love and relationships which apparently I have been loving lately.

3. Favourite word?

I have so many to chose from. I like the word befuddled because I thinks its nice to say but then again I do love the word Kerfuffle. Its between those two.

4. How long have you been blogging?
About nine months now, I feel like my blog should get much better now that I have been doing it for nearly a year.

5. Top way to procrastinate? (Other than blogging!)
I spend a lot of time watching stand up comedy DVD's and I do get distracted by listening to spotify.

6. Sweet or savoury?
It really depends what mood I'm in. I would say I tend to go for more savoury foods like crisps because sweet food gets to sickly after a while.

7.If you could go on a date with any celebrity, who would it be and why?
Hmmmmm.....This is a hard one for me. I have a few celebrity crushes

8. Favourite season?
Winter. I just love the fact that I can snuggle in pyjamas at like four in the afternoon and wear fluffy socks.

9. Apple or Windows?
I would love to own an Apple computer but I feel attached to windows, that's all I've ever used. The dream is to own an Apple mac though.

10. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Hopefully with a better blog, and still doing what I love. I would love to have my own book out but I know that will never happen.

11. Favourite memory?
When I was about 7 all of my family went on holiday to Devon, we went crabbing and my aunt and uncle said to throw the crabbing net in, they meant throw the line in but I threw the whole thing in and subsequently lost my crabbing line and couldn't catch anything. Also because we sat on the edge of this wall with out legs dangling above the water my aunt used to tie her jacket round me and hold onto it to make sure I didn't fall in which was really sweet and plus if I'd have gone in she would have been coming with me so that's commitment for you. To this day they still joke about the crabbing incident which always brings back good memories.

My questions |

1) Do you feel confident in yourself?
2) What's your idea of a perfect day?
3) What country are you from?
4) Do you have any weird habits?
5) Whats you dream/ Goal in life?
6) Why did you start your blog?
7) Do you like Harry Potter, if so what house are you? (Mines Hufflepuff).
8) What was your first job?
9) Whats your favourite high street shop?
10) Favourite comedian?

Tuesday, 13 January 2015

Tuesday 13th January 2015 | Dream journal

So last night I had a weird dream that I was at a circus but I was in a game like Mario and Luigi. I don't have a clue why I was at a circus but I was there with people from shows I've watched. There were people from 'would I lie to you?' which is a comedy panel show and there was also a few people from harry potter. It was weird because they were characters and not the actors, it was very strange seeing Draco Malfoy and Lavender Brown at the circus with me but at least Voldemort wasn't there.

As I always do now, I looked on dreamforth and had a little look to see if it could shed some light on the dream I had. It said To dream that you are just at the circus can mean that you are portraying a false image to those around you. You are hiding behind a facade; perhaps afraid to reveal your emotions. This is definitely wrong, I don't hide behind a facade and I'm perfectly happy to reveal my emotions.

 I don't really know why I dreamt I was in a game like Mario but I think I dreamt about Draco Malfoy and Lavender Brown because I saw the actor who played Lavender on a TV show the night before and I stumbled across 'Voldemort's daughter' on wattpad which I got engrossed in before I went to bed. I'm sorry this dream wasn't hat exciting but I cant control them unfortunately so enjoy my crazy dream.

Monday, 12 January 2015

Monday 12th January 2015 | Dream journal

So last night I only had about 4 hours sleep which meant I had a very short dream, in that very short dream I did some weird things and because I'm a very giving person, once again I'm sharing them with you lovely readers.

So at the start I was back in school with my old friends. One of them wasn't there and he had met these other people who I didn't recognise. It felt so real like I actually was back at school but something seemed different. The dream then jumped ahead to a train which was full of all the people from my school but it was like the tube. I was sitting with the girls and chatting when we saw the other girl, she was ring so nasty and acting like she didn't know us when she used to be close. I still didn't know who who she was with and that still remains a mystery. A bit later I was walking through the train carriages and it all looked like the Hogwarts express, unfortunately in this dream I wasn't a wizard and I wasn't on my way to Hogwarts.
My friends had vanished and had left me a note saying they didn't have time to spend with me, I was shocked but happy which seemed weird. Three girls I knew showed up and we had a great conversation, someone else showed up as well which was a nice surprise and at the point they turned up in my dream I woke up.

Recently I have been thinking about when I was at school and how I felt within my group of friends, this is something I might post about in the future. I think the fact that the three girls I knew were in my dream after my other friends had ditched me showed me so my friends really are. I've been chatting them lately and It genuinely makes me smile when I talk to them, it's people who still make time to talk when yo don't see them that are worth keeping in Your life because the actually care. According to Dreamforth A dream about a moving train signifies the current journey you are on. Which is true as at the minute am on my own little journey with writing. It also says Seeing other passengers suggests much effort exerted in gaining the approval of others. I think this part is very clear for the areas of the dream where I am with school friends. At school I felt I needed to seek approval as I never felt I could just be myself, the fact that I say people who make me happy and who I can be myself with showed me that maybe I have finally grown up and have outgrown people I used to know.

Bye for now xxx

Sunday, 11 January 2015

Its a scary world we live in |

Today isn't going to be a cheery post about something random in my head, its going to be a more serious one and if you don't want to here what I have to say then please feel free to click of my blog. I want to talk about the situation in Paris. I said a while ago that I respect all religions and organisations and today I amend that statement. I respect all religions and organisations that just keep to themselves, who want to preach and spread love and peace. No matter what religion you are I know that the basic principles come into play, and it certainly does not justify murder. I have no respect for murderers, there is no need to take innocent lives or any lives for that matter.

As I hope most of you know, this week saw terrible crimes committed in Paris and I didn't want to not write about it, its something that to be honest affects everyone in this world. Innocent people lost their lives this week to terrorism, because they didn't like what Charlie Hebdo published. I understand that it must sometimes be upsetting to see your religion being mocked, I get it. Every single religion on this planet have been mocked, that's life and to be honest people know its a joke.  I find it sickening that because these terrorists took offence they went into the Charlie Hebdo offices and killed people.We all come across things and situations that we don't agree with in life but I know for a fact that no sane individual sees murder as a fitting punishment. Every generation has seen evil. I was born into a world that had its problems, had its evil, but since 1997 to me it seems like terrorism has taken over. When I was 4 the twin towers were part of a terrorist plot and came tumbling to the ground leaving devastation to thousand's of people, the world seemed to come to a stop.

 This year alone our TV screens have been filled with news that innocent people have been beheaded, it devastates me that this happened and I can even begin to imagine what the poor family's went and are still going through. I read RussellBrands blog post about the Paris situation and it spoke volumes. He  said this "we each have the power to create heaven or hell here on Earth, extremists on all sides are clear in their intentions and actions, we, the vast, powerful majority, Christians, Muslims, atheists and undecideds have to be more committed and more determined. We must love life more than they love death. We must love each other more than they hate, in God’s name, in Allah’s name in Charlie’s name, in all our names.". I think this sums up perfectly what I'm trying to say, I just cant put my feelings into words.

There is terror all around us, recently it came out the British government had put a stop to three planned attacks on the UK. We don't get told what's going on until its either been stopped or is happening, but we have to keep going. As hard as it is we cant live in fear or terrorists, its like letting them win. My only hope is that this one day comes to a stop, everyone has different beliefs but most of us share the same morals, all religions that I know of don't condone violence/ murder. If these people are killing in the name of their god or idol then they are putting it to shame, these people clearly don't practise Islam which people are getting a false view of. Islam is a religion of peace and love and that's what we need to remember, its a small amount of people in the terrorist group compared to the rest of the world. Every religion needs to come together, support each other because we like Russell brand said "We have the power to create heaven or hell here on earth", we are fighting a never ending war with evil but we cant let it win. We all live on the same planet and while we're on it we need to live peacefully together.

I found research for this post and I am sorry if any of it is wrong, I tried my best to look into the different points I made. I'm not trying to cause offence to anyone reading this, as I said I respect all religions and organisations that follow the basic laws, I just have no respect for the terrorist group like everyone else. Nothing justifies what they are continuing to do. I would like to get your opinions on the matter, does it scare you that this is now the world we live in?

Bye for now xxx

Body confidence |


Body confidence is something that has always been an issue for me, the image that girls and boys are shown is baffling. All the magazines are filled with what society say is the ideal image and that if you look different to it them your either to fat or ugly. I hate this message that is being published to children and teenagers. I have loved watching Louise from Sprinkleofglitter for years and she talks about body confidence, I found her blog posts and videos really helpful for body confidence. Go and have a little look on her channel or blog because she talks sense and makes you feel great about yourself.

All images of models are all airbrush anyway so they might as well just stick a picture of a Barbie doll in their magazine and say that that's what everyone should look like. I feel like its bad enough for people to grow up around kids that pick on them because of what they look like, let alone them reading about what people feel is acceptable. I wanted to write this post because it shocked me how young teens think they should look, I overheard a conversation when I was out the other day, I heard a couple of girls that were about 12 say that they could only dream of being size 0! This girl wasn't big, she looked perfectly healthy yet she's been influence by magazines about what you should look like and that's terrible. People come in all shapes and sizes and there's nothing wrong with that. I don't see why there is such an issue with what people look like, who cares?

No matter how big or small you are in weight, height or even shoe size you are perfect and don't let anyone say your not. So many people don't have body confidence because of bully's, let alone the media. Stop trying to be the airbrushed women or men in the magazines because they are not realistic, those pictures are photo shopped to show flawless skin, no cellulite, no freckles or anything that makes them real. Embrace what you look like because I guarantee you are beautiful and you just need to believe that you are.

Bye for now xxx

Saturday, 10 January 2015

I love this song

I have loved Dodie for ages and this song is perfection. You should all go and check out her channel.

Saturday 10th January 2015 | Dream journal

I started this dream journal months ago and have never posted in it, I don't know why but recently I've been having some pretty cool dreams and I want to put them in this page so that I can go back to them. This was yesterdays dream which I'm only just posting about. I have found a website thats sort of a dream analyser and I will be using this to see if its accurate to my life and to the dreams I have.

So last night I dreamt that I was going down a road near to where I live with Carrie Hope Fletcher and we were going down the road singing Les Miserable songs. Its was really strange but lovely at the same time. We were rehearsing the script and I kept on checking with here whether or not I was doing it okay, I didn't have a clue what part I was playing. As in all dreams I skipped ahead about fives hours and then I was with people from my old school, it was with an old friend of mine and some other people who didn't really like me at school which was weird and I don't really know why they were in my dream.

We were waiting to go on stage and I was telling Carrie how I wanted to perform but I didn't want my family to see me in it, next thing I knew we were walking over to the performance are which was my old school, the school that we were in before we change buildings. I then realised that I was playing Eponine with Carrie, in this version there were two Eponine's and I had the responsibility of being one of them. In my dream I saw some of my family as me and Carrie were smearing dirt on our faces, I got really panicky so my friend got them chucked out by security. I then skipped ahead and I was on stage in  what looked like the Hammersmith Apollo but was in my old school. I was in the middle of the play and then it got to "on my own" and it was my turn to sing. It was a bit like in the Lizzie McGuire movie where there are two Lizzie's and when it got to the moment I had to sing I woke up.

I'm actually devastated that my dream stopped there, I really wanted to see if I put on a good performance. I don't know why I had that dream but it was a really nice one for a change and it involve Carrie Hope Fletcher, the current Eponine in London's Les Miserable.

This is what dreamforth says about theatre;
To dream about being in a theatre means that pleasure will come from impending friendships. Think about how what's on stage mirrors things in your daily living. See how the actors' roles relate to you. Maybe you're assuming a different guise.

I think there could be a part of me that can relate to the character or Eponine and I can see some of my daily life in what what happening on stage. I find this quite interesting and I want to know if its right about my other dreams that are waiting to be dreamt....

Friday, 9 January 2015

Don't want to miss a thing | Review

I'm really sorry I haven't posted in a few days but I've been in a really crappy mood and I didn't want to be negative on my blog. I'm all happy and cheery now so I thought I would do a review of 'Don't want to miss a thing' but Jill Mansell. This is going to be a quick review just because the book didn't really interest me that much, while the story and the characters were good it was just a little confusing to follow.

I did enjoy this book but for me it seemed a bit hard to follow. The main character Dexter is left to look after his niece when his sister dies. It follow's his story of how he moves into the country and tries to look after the baby. While all of this is going on there is a girl who finds out that her dad has been living virtually another life with another family. 

Don't get me wrong this was a great book but I cant help feeling that it would have made two brilliant books instead of mixing the two. They are both (In my opinion)
major plot lines that could have easily had a book of their own with further development of the characters and plot. 

The main plot is based around Dexter but the other plot comes into play a little way into the book. I did enjoy it as I love Jill Mansells book but it became a little hard to follow as it jumped between stories.

Bye for now xxx