Sunday, 31 August 2014


As much as I would love a dog or a little rabbit/Guinea pig I Don't have the time to train it and to care fro the animal properly, just because of my job, I would love a pet but its not fair to be out all of the time. Well that and that fact that my dad is against the idea of a pet. With that in mind I thought it would be nice to reminisce about all the pets that I have had, so If you don't like animals or just don't like my boring posts, then feel free to start scrolling through Tumblr or watching YouTube, I promise I wont be offended.

So to start of I'm going to talk about pets that I actually remember, to be honest before I was born I don't know if my family had any pets, they could have run zoo for all I know. I remember that when i was about 4 me and my sister had a lovely little rabbit called Smudge, now Smudge was supposed to be a lion haired rabbit which are apparently really fluffy, but he wasn't fluffy at all. He was a white rabbit with a little smudge of grey on his fur, well that's how I remember him. Unfortunately smudge got bitten by a fox and then died so after a few hours of crying, we managed to move on.

Thumper was the next rabbit we got, now me and my sister weren't technically allowed this rabbit, as my dad wasn't keen on another animal but with the help of our mum was brought home a black and white spotty rabbit who greeted our dad on his arrival home from work, he wasn't to impressed but he didn't mind after a few hours. Thumper wasn't like smudge, this rabbit had a rebellious attitude and wasn't the most friendly, on numerous occasions he would escape and run under the decking at the back of the garden, he would send days out there and come and sit by his cage, when we tried to catch him, he would just hop on back under the decking! I did like that rabbit but it was a bit annoying when it escaped, after about 2 or 3 years thumper also died.

Since rabbits and me clearly weren't the perfect match, me and my sister both got fish, mine were called Nemo and Coral, I know I'm very original with creating names, ha ha. I think you can all guess where this story is going, and a few months later the fish died.

I'm starting to see a bad trend here, but one of my favourite pets who in my opinion was the cutest hamster I've had was Cookie. I got Cookie when I was about 8 or 9, partly because my sister had a hamster and I was a jealous little sister and felt like the think my lie was missing was in the shape of a small fluffy ball. Because I was home schooled I had loads of time to spend with my hamster and I felt we became the best of friends, Cookie wasn't like other hamsters, in fact he had trained himself to be awake in the day and asleep at night, I know hamsters are normally nocturnal abut because I was home, Cookie soon got into my bedtime routine and the perfect animal human friendship began. This ended about a year and a half later when he got ill, we were told by the vets that he was dying, and I didn't everything I could to make sure he live, but unfortunately I'M not a miracle worker and Cookie was not longer with us a week later.

After all these deaths in the animal family, I waited until I was about 12 to get hamster number two, who I called Sapphire, I don't know why as that's a terrible name for a hamster. Now I couldn't spend as much time looking after this hamster because of school and it didn't really like me that much, so as bad as it sounds, I gave my hamster to my friend who I knew would look after it, I asked her about the hamster in year 11, and it turns out that the hamster died 6 months after I gave it to her, I think she just forgot to tell me.

So in the future, when I have my own place I would really love to have a dog, preferably a little pug. I hope I didn't bore any of you tom much, but I just fancied chatting about the pets I've had.

Bye for now xxx

Sunday, 24 August 2014

Retro sweets

I'm starting to see a trend in the topics I write about, and that is food! Now I've named this post "retro sweets" because I used to love them as a child and its really hard to find them now.

Now I was a chubby child and still am a chubby adult so its obviously that I was partial to nibbling on lots of sweeties. One of the sweets that I loved when I was little were campino's, these were hard boiled sweets that tasted like strawberries  and cream. I think they had them in blackcurrant and peach, but I wasn't to keen on them. I'm going to insert a picture of them below, and if anyone knows where I can buy these then I will be incredibly happy.

Bubblegum fizzy bottles are my favourite sweets, they are blue and pink and they taste amazing. Now these were the type of sweets that I loved and hated as a child because I loved the taste but they were sour when you first at them. I cant find these in most shops but at Christmas in primark they sell them for £3 and my mum gets me a few little jars to keep for the rest of the year (They normally only last a few weeks thought, what can I say, I get hungry.).

Popping candy was one of my favourite things to eat, well out of sweets that is, I never had a bowl of popping candy for dinner, I'm unhealthy but not that bad. I think this tastes amazing with chocolate and on ice cream. 

Lastly, but certainly not least. There were these little rectangle chewy sweets that were so tasty. They tastes like liquorice, fruit salad and I can t remember the other flavour but I cant find these any more, and the ones I have found just don't taste the same. Whenever me and my sister stayed with my aunt and uncle, when we went out in the car, my uncle always had these sweets in the back for us all the nibble on. 

Bye for now xxx

Sunday, 17 August 2014

Who says?

today is a bit more of a serious post. I want to talk about bully's and how they can make you feel. Now I'm sure who ever is reading this will have unfortunately been on the receiving end of bullying, and it Can make you feel like the most unpopular person in the world. Now when I was at school I was never physically bullied, but there were people every single day who would make comments about my weight and my appearance. I'm writing this because my cousin is starting secondary school in September, and although she wont read this, i know that shes worried about fitting in.

I hate the fact that at some point she will be bullied and all children will be. I thing the problem is that to many children think that bullying is physical, and yes that's true in some cases but most of the time its verbal. The amount of times I was called fat, ugly and much worse that I don't want to write on-line because I don't even want to write what I was called, but it made me feel so small, unimportant and there were some days I didn't want to go to school.

So many kids are worried that they will be bullied and that they wont it in that they don't admit to what they love or who they are in fear of what people will think of them. When I was at school I kept the fact that I was home schooled during some of my primary school a secret from people I knew, even my best friends because I was so worried about what they would think of me. I didn't want to be the odd one out, I didn't tell them I love doctor who and harry potter because that would have made me different and I didn't want to be made fun of.

They point of this post is to tell you that's its okay to be different, its okay to like the most unpopular band, that shows that people associate with being geeky and its okay to have a past, and you should never feel like you should hide who you really are. Most of the people I went to school with haven't spoken to me since we all left, you will find that those people who make fun of you because they see you as different will have the same problem. they will have something they don't want to share because they don't want to be seen as slightly different.

Never be embarrassed to tell people what you love, what you believe and how you chose to live you life. Because they people that have a problem with that, and chose to pick on you aren't important, they wont be part of your future and there opinion's are not valid. to everyone that's been called fat, ugly, boring, to thin or made fun of because of the colour of your skin or hair, remember that the people who said that aren't important and it may hurt when they say it, but never let it affect you because everyone is perfect just the way they are, and no one should feel like they need to change to fit what people say is normal. Remember, why fit in when you were born to stand out.

Sorry that was a bit long.
Bye for now xxx

Wednesday, 13 August 2014

Driving diary lesson #3

Ive had two days off this week so Monday was spend lounging in bed and not getting anything done and on Tuesday I had to wake up at 7am to get ready for my driving lesson. So yesterdays lesson saw me driving down my road and going on main roads, I wont lie to you but this terrified.

When I got into the car wee drove down the road a little bit and then I went through all the things I had learnt last lesson and he asked me some questions about what I could actually remember. The main focus of yesterdays lesson was making left and right turns, driving round roundabouts a little and manoeuvring T junctions. I was so scared about going on the main road and it seemed like everyone decided to follow me in their cars. I managed to do the left turns okay and can change gears a bit more easier but I struggled a little with the right turns because you have to wait longer to turn the car as you need to be over further on the road.

I was so annoyed that I stalled the car 3 times and went up the curb, I was so scared when my instructor said that we would be going on the main road near the seafront and I was even more nervous that I would be driving at 30miles. I know I will be driving at faster speeds than that on the motorway but Considering this was my 3rd time in a car I was still nervous.

So I hope I haven't bored you to much but I thought you may want to know how the driving was going, oh and also I'm planning on going to Harry Potter studios in September so let me know if you want to see a blog on that.

Bye for now xxx

Sunday, 10 August 2014

What I want to happen in 2015

So today I just fancy chatting about what I hope 2015 will bring for me and what I want to be doing next year. Firstly I really want to be at my goal weight which is 10stone. I feel that when I'm at a healthier weight I will feel More confident in myself and I want to go out without worrying what people think of me.

The next thing that I really want is to be able to drive, now I wasn't in a situation where I could afford to do driving lessons but now that I have my job, I can afford to save up and hopefully learn to drive. I wont lie to you, I'm terrified about learning to drive, the thought of me getting in a car and actually driving scares the hell out of me but I know that once I can do it, that's one less thing I will worry about in the future and then I can drive myself to work and hopefully but next year I can afford to buy myself a mini cooper.

Holiday! I've wanted to go to Florida for ages and I'm thinking about going next year, now flights are really expensive and I will feel really bad if all of my family go, so I might actually go by myself (How anti-social does that sound). If my mum, dad and sister think we should go Ive already said that I will pay for my flight. Now the reason I want to go to Florida is to go to Universal studios, mainly because I want to go to Harry Potter world, I mean they've made diagon ally and Hogwarts express, why would I not want to go. Also I really want to go to Disney land in Orlando because it looks amazing.

Right Ive got to a point where I've actually forgotten what I was going to talk about, i just need to re-cap, so I've done driving, holiday and weight, ah that's it! I want to spend more time on my blog, now that's going to be difficult with my job but hopefully I can make more interesting posts now that I'm actually doing something instead of spending my mornings watching Jeremy kyle, (threes nothing wrong with that of course, but now that I have a little bit more money I can do more interesting things and tell you all about them and share with you my different experiences.

Oh and before I forget I also really want to go to Harry Potter studios because I've heard its amazing there and I also want to go to the doctor who experience in Cardiff, its just travelling there which will be the issue.

So what are your plans for 2015?
thanks for reading

Bye for now xxx

Thursday, 7 August 2014

The Liebster Award!

I have been tagged by the lovely Bria Lou to do the Liebster Award Tag! You can follow her blog here: 

Now I'm not entirely sure of the rules so I'm going to use the ones that other people have used and hope that they are right. 

1. Post the award on your blog

2. Thank the blogger who presented you with the award and link back to their blog
3. Write 11 random facts about yourself.
4. Nominate 11 bloggers who you feel deserve this award and who have less than 500 followers.
5. Answer 11 questions posted by the presenter and ask your nominees 11 questions. 

I really want to thank louleecutie for the nomination because I love her blog and she writes really great posts and has helped me a bit with my blog and answered some of my boring questions. 

11 Random Facts About Me

1) I watched and read Harry potter for the first time this year and now wish I could have watched and read the         books sooner.

2) I love the band McFly.
3) I was taught at home from the age of 7 to 11.
4) I am a bookworm.
5) I love singing but I have no confidence and I don't sound to good either.
6) My family don't have a clue about this blog.
7) I have planned my dream home even though I will ever be able to afford to move out.
8) I wish Hogwarts was real because I love the idea of magic.
9) I want to write a book and I have the whole book planned out exactly how I want it.
10) My goal in life is to meet Louise from Sprinkleofglitter because her videos make me smile and her look books          give me confidence and she is just a wonderful person.
11) I sometimes wish I could go back to when I was little to relive some of my favourite memories.

Bria's Questions.

1) What is your favourite book?
     Harry potter which I know has 7 books but I simply cant choose between them.
2) How old will you be at your next birthday?
3) What is your favourite hobby?
     Baking and writing this blog.
4) Who is your favourite male YouTuber?
     Alfie deyes (Pointlessblog)
5) How many siblings, if any, do you have?
    1 sister.
6) Who was your first celebrity crush?
     Tom Fletcher and he still is.
7) What was your favourite childhood TV show?
     My parents are aliens.
8) What is your favourite movie?
    Oh I have to many but if your making me choose then I'll pick.....mmmmmm.......Harry potter and the order of     the phoenix
9) What is your favourite school subject?
     My favourite school subject was textiles.
10) Do you believe in mermaids, unicorns, ghosts or fairies?
      I don't believe in unicorns that's just silly but I do believe in mermaids, ghosts fairies and magic haha.
11) If you had an hour until death, what would you do?
       knowing me I would either watch my favourite youtubers or just go to sleep.

My questions?
1) Do you feel confident in yourself?
2) Whats your idea of a perfect day?
3) What country are you from?
4) Do you have any weird habits?
5) Whats you dream/ Goal in life?
6) Why did you start your blog?
7) Do you like Harry Potter, if so what house are you? (Mines Hufflepuff).
8) What was your first job?
9) Whats your favourite high street shop?
10) Sweet or savoury?
11) Who are you closest to in your family?

Feel free to answer my questions below, thanks for reading.
Bye for now xxx

Driving diary lesson #2

So today I had my second driving lesson, I booked a two hour lessons because I feel its better to have more time in the care when you are learning. We went over everything that I learnt last week to make sure that I remembered, I may have forgot a tiny bit but he said its normal to forget at first. Today I was shown when to use your signals and how to reveres in a straight line, now that might seem like the simplest thing to do ever but I tell you know that when you are in the car doing it then it seems like the most difficult thing you will ever do. I wont lie to you, I don't have good clutch control, which is basically where you use the clutch to reverse slowly, for some reason I go a bit to fast doing this but I'm sure I will get the hang of it.

The other thing I did today was so scary, my instructor thought I was ready to tackle the round about, it wasn't a busy one but its still on the main road and I was in charge which for me was terrifying. Its weird being in control of the car going at more than 10 miles an hour, and I was going at about 29 miles which seemed so fast, I don't know why because I'm used to being in my mum and dads cars going about 70 miles on the motorway but I think it just felt weird at first because I was in charge.

I was really pleased with how I coped as I do get anxious about doing things like this, so the thought of me starting to drive and getting taught by a complete stranger was petrifying, but I've realised that you just have to do what scares you or you'll just keep plodding along and I want to go somewhere in life, metaphorically speaking in the sense that I don't want to be held back because I'm to scared. Driving for me is like saying goodbye to being a teenager and meeting adulthood, sorry to have gone of topic but this year I have done so much on my own, without having my parents to tell me what they think is best, and grown into my own person more, if that makes sense. I've always been to scared to do new things because I get scared about my family thinking its a bad decisions but now I just don't care, I'm my own person and I have to do things that will help me get where I want to be in the future and that means taking control of my life and doing what I feel is right instead of looking for direction and approval from others.

I cant wait for my next lesson, which is on Tuesday. Oh and I also did a 3 point turn today which did involve me driving my instructors car into the bush but he wasn't to bothered, whoops!.

Bye for now xxx

Sunday, 3 August 2014

My favourite Musicians

I like music that I feel has a good story behind it, you know when you hear a song and you can instantly connect  some point of your life to one particular lyric. Some of my favourite musicians are Keane, Florence and the machine, Adele, McFly and Emeli Sande. Don't get me wrong I like artists like One direction and Bruno mars, but I feel like the main genre of music from artists like them are more pop, and I like the fact that my favourite musicians are in my opinion a bit of everything.

Keane in my opinion are a great band , I love all there songs but i particular the song called "Somewhere only we know", this has been my favourite song since I was about seven just because I have a really lovely memory that goes with this song, Considering that I'm now 17, there have been hundreds of songs that I have loved but none come close to this one.

McFly are my favourite band, they have been for years and I'm not ashamed to say I'm a bit of a fan girl where McFly are concerned. I love their music partly because Ive grown up with their music and also because they are amazing live. Some artists are worse when you see them live, but McFly are brilliant and always full of energy and put everything they have into their performances.

Emeli sande music is lovely and she has such an amazing voice. My favourite song by her is "Breaking the law" it is so beautifully written and her vocals are amazing on the normal and acoustic version. By Adele my favourite song is "set fire to the rain". I Love this song and all of her songs really. I would love to see her live if she does another tour.

Thanks for listening to my boring ramblings and my favourite musicians.
Bye for now xxx